Do We Know What We Seek in Our Lives?

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We feel like something is
missing in our lives.

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It could be something material,
it could be just a Pang of

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hunger or thirst, it could be a
sense of emotional emptiness

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unattached to a specific object.
We may feel like we need to find

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out something do something, no,
something respond to something,

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although we are not quite sure
exactly what it is.

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This sense of emptiness occurs
to everyone at various times of

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Life.
In some cases where it is

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attached to a specific desire,
we can identify what it is, we

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speak.
But in many cases it is, vague

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amorphous, undefined?
As we grow in Awareness, we may

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begin to have a feeling of
aspiration towards something

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greater something Beyond us.
Some seek a relationship with an

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external God or savior.
Some aspire to Enlightenment

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salvation, Freedom, From The
Bondage of nature, or other

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forms.
That such an aspiration may

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take.
This is a sign that we are

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readying ourselves to go beyond
the body life.

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Mine complex and the attachment
to the fruits of the external

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life.
Even here.

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However, we are not always clear
or certain about the specifics

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of our seeking and as we grow
the nature of that seeking may

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change, SRI aurobindo writes,
quote man seeks at first blindly

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and does not even know that he
is seeking his Divine self.

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For he starts from the obscurity
of material nature and even when

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he begins to see his long
Blinded By the Light that is

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increasing in him. a disciple
asks, how is it that one seeks

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something and yet does not know
that one is seeking The mother

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responds quote.
There's so many things you think

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feel want even do without
knowing it.

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Are you fully conscious of
yourself and of all that goes on

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in you not at all.
If for example, suddenly without

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you're expecting it at a certain
moment.

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I asked you, what are you
thinking about your reply 99

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times out of 100 will be?
I don't know.

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And what do you feel?
I don't know.

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It is only to those who are used
to observing themselves

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watching, how they live, who are
concentrated upon this need to

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know what is going on in.
Them.

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That one can ask a precise
question like this and only they

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can immediately reply.
In some instances in life.

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Yes, one is absorbed in what one
feels thinks wants and then one

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can say, yes, I want that.
I am thinking of that, I

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experienced that, but these are
only moments of existence, not

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the whole time.
Haven't you noticed that now and

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quote reference SRI aurobindo in
the mother growing within the

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site.
Ecology of inner development,

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chapter 1 emergence, from
unconsciousness Pages, 9 to 10.