I found my power or as I call it -stepping into your magnificence later than most.
Actually I started to realize my power during my 50’s and stepped into my spotlight at age 63. You see I have always been a late bloomer - but I thought its better late than never. I don’t like saying stepping into the unknown. It sounds dark and lonely. But stepping into your spotlight sounds like a great place to be - its light and bright and everyone wants to see you succeed. Where do you start you may ask? Look at what you have overcome up to this point. As women we are so busy moving forward to the next thing to be done that we don’t look back at our triumphs. I’m talking about those moments in time that you thought it too tough, too hard to move forward and you wanted to quit but you didn’t if you’re here today, you have already stepped into your spotlight and are just beginning to recognize your power.
I was a single parent during the 70s and scared of my own shadow. I had prepared for the last 10 years during middle and high school being groomed to be the next Olympic hopeful in track and field. I could think of nothing else during that time. I knew what I wanted and how to achieve it. I knew that if I made the Olympic team I would be a part of history regardless of whether i medaled or not. But the thought of being a medalist was my one and only goal. Knowing what I wanted and how to get it was powerful even at a young age.
You see, running fast was my super power. I could turn it on or off whenever I wanted. It was so effortless that I was almost as if I didn’t have to do anything to turn it on.
Then life happened. At the age of 16 I was sexually assaulted by someone I knew. An upstanding Air Force staff seargeant, good at his job and exceptional according to his superiors. It was at that time that I knew no one would believe me because it was my word against his. An Air Force brat versus an airman in uniform. I told no one what had happened. My dreams of being an Olympian were dashed forever.
I had never thought of what else I wanted to do in life. Maybe you’ve been there. Not knowing the next step or being afraid to take the next step. After a couple of failed marriages, I took charge of my. life and enlisted in the US Air Force.
It was the only means I had to provide for myself and my child. Because living with my parents was no longer an option. The military provided what I needed when I needed it. It was a leap of faith so to speak and a chance to redeem myself.
I never had a chance to figure out what I wanted in life. It was always what my child needed. Being a single parent is all encompassing in every way possible especially in the military. You don’t have time to think about what you want.
I did meet my husband while in the Air Force but I still didn’t know what I wanted to do after doing 20 years in the military.
I decided on fitness since I had been an instructor and later a personal trainer and Pilates instructor. I loved it and I was good at it! But after 37 plus years i still wanted something more.
As I have aged I have found my voice and I have stepped into what I call my spotlight or my magnificence. We all have that spotlight. You have to choose when and if you decide to accept and command your power
Commanding your power is knowing what you want and not having to explain why. If your like me, you have a spouse that supports your decisions to try something new and be okay if it doesn’t work out.
For example, I tried my hand at real estate. I was successful, but it wasn’t what I had envisioned for the rest of my life and I actually hated it so I was okay letting it go. I had been wanting to do a podcast for at least a year but I was so caught up in making sure everything and everybody was taken care of except for me. What did I want?
In 2017, I found the Women Veterans Network (WoVeN) and I found my tribe - women veterans helping and connecting other women veterans. Being with my veteran sisters was a source of finding myself and what I wanted.
During Covid I took another leap of faith and started a podcast called Sisters-in-Service. So I learned everything I could and launched it in Oct 2020. It was one of the best things I have ever done. It is something I am passionate about - women veterans - my sisters in service.
Commanding your power is also knowing what you don’t want while working towards something that helps you step into your spotlight - your magnificence.
It’s okay to dream and figure out what you want!! We are so profound as women and we do so many things for everyone else but US. We are there for our family, job, spouse, dog, house, etc. But when it comes time to do for US - we don’t have the time, money, etc.
Find out what makes you happy - what makes you shine and fills your cup and moves you forward into that spotlight - into your magnificence. Thank you for listening!!