Chris Gorman & Esme Russell Of Big Gay Radio Show Calls Into Hoppe Hour With Ryan Hoppe

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Hopefully they pick up because a lot of times

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on radio shows, well, on my show, they don't

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pick up, but the other ones, there's actors.

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But we're going to have Esme Russell, 50 -year

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drag queen, and Chris Gorman from WMNF and the

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Big A radio show on. let's get this going what's

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up guys this is Hoppy Hour I am your host Ryan

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Hoppy and on the phone line very excited we have

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Esme Russell 50 year drag queen performer and

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great award winning radio host and also The host

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of the Big Gay Radio Show is Chris Gorman, and

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they are both on Hoppy Hour with Ryan Hoppy.

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This is where the Big Gay Radio Show mixes with

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Hoppy Hour. And we're here to defend trans rights

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and everything LGBTQ+. What's up, guys? Hello.

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It's great to be here. So, describe to me, so

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I talked about it last week, I saw the news headline,

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but what are they trying to do with drag shows

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right now? Because I'm the guy... I have a lesbian

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aunt, and also I always attract bisexual girls

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for some reason. So I'm always around the gay

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community, and I've always been an ally. And

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I'm getting to a point where I'm sick and tired

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of people discriminating against it. So do you

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know what's going on with that? So Esme, as a

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drag performer, I think she would be able to

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explain a little bit more. But as far as I understand,

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it's not really that big of a... change apart

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from that these individuals are not going to

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be able to perform in front of children. Obviously,

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it's not an outright blanket drag ban, right,

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Esme? It's not a drag ban, per se, though they're

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kind of making it. The law is written so oddly

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that you don't really know how they're going

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to enforce it. But we know that they don't want

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entertainers such as myself. to do anything sexually

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explicit or sexy in front of children. And listen,

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we don't want to anyway. Well, most of them weren't

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even doing it either. A lot of the times, most

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drag performances, especially when they came

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in front of children, were not risque. And Esme

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actually performed at Hamburger Mary's for years.

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Oh, my goodness. She performed for children.

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That's where I think I've seen you. Because 2016,

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after the Ybor Night Parade, I was with 1 -2

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-5 The Bond. And that was the best burger I ever

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had. It was a great time. Yeah. So I worked for

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Hamburger Mary's for nine years. Nice. So, yeah,

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it was great. I loved it. We had very strict

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rules at Hamburger Mary's. You know, I was the...

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show director and the hostess for the brunch

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show. I did work in the evening shows as well,

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but the brunch show, we had a lot of children

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that would come to see the shows with their families.

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Children never come alone. They always come with

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their parents. This idea that children are coming

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into Hamburger Mary's or any other clubs. By

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the way, you can't come into a regular club with

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children because there's alcohol. So if you're

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a drag queen that works in a bar, this is not

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going to affect you. This is just for showgirls

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that work in environments that have brunches

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or daytime venues where children do come. So

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now they're policing parents. They're making

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a decision for parents because if a child is

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there watching the show, that was a parent's

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decision. The child didn't decide to go see the

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drag show. It was some mom and dad or some mom

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or some dad alone that said, you know what? Let's

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go see a drag show today. But our rules were

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very strict. We couldn't do any profanity on

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the microphone. We couldn't do any cleavage or

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breast showing of any type. We couldn't do any

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butt shots, you know, so no, you know, nothing,

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nothing that was, couldn't touch my private parts.

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Like I couldn't accidentally grab my boobs and

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shake them. I couldn't do that. I had to be very,

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very specifically careful because we were targeting

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a, what is a general, a G audience, right? G

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audience. So these laws are just there. I don't

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like to use the word transphobic. I try to say

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this all the time. These people, you know, the

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word phobic means to be afraid. It comes from

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phobos, the Greek word, to be terrorized. They're

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not terrorized by drag queens. They're not homophobic

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either. They're not terrorized by gay people.

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They're just bad people. Do you think there's

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any chance that a lot of the... And I'm not even

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trying to get political, but do you feel like

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a lot of times the people that are so against

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gay rights and so against trans rights, I think

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not 100 % of the time, but I think a lot of times

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they're probably either by or in the closet.

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And I've always kind of felt like they might

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have a little bit of jealousy that people that

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are out and living their gay life are happy.

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Do you like that idea at all? Well, just look

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over at Lindsey Graham. The way that he went

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his entire life attacking gay people, but he

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was gayer than a bag of penises he hid in the

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closet. He did. He lived. No, he lived in the

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closet. He said he did. I've just never heard

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that. That's amazing. You can be gayer than a

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bag of peanuts. And a thing, too. Yeah. Yeah,

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it's nothing gayer than a bag of penises. Peanuts,

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penises. Well, peanuts and penises, that's not

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a good word together. If your penis is a peanut,

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you're in trouble. I won't go there, but I'm

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just saying. But yeah, so yeah, there's a direct,

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I believe there is a direct correlation. between

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the word homophobia and homosexuality. What is

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it? I think they're brothers. I think they are.

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I think they are brothers. And I think when you

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realize, because I've met many straight men throughout

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my life who are unaffected by gay people being

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together. It's like, big deal, they're gay, so

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what? As long as it doesn't bother me, I'm good.

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As long as they don't approach me, I'm good.

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You know what I'm saying? So I get it. So this,

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listen, there's no, is this a PG show? Yeah,

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you can honestly, Esme, say whatever the fuck

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you want. Go ahead. Okay, so here's what I was

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going to say. They're not homophobic and they're

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not transphobic. They're just assholes. No, I'm

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being honest. I know, I know. I don't want any

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drag queens in the bathroom with my wife. Listen,

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I've been in the bathroom, in the ladies' room

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with your wife since I was 14 years old. I'm

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65 years old now. Okay, do you know how many

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women I've seen in a restroom before in my life?

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At Disney, at theme parks, at restaurants, at

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the mall, at Walmart, at the grocery. Whenever

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I go to the restroom, there are women there.

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What am I supposed to do? I can't go to the men's

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room. So you're just going to have to accept

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it. And the reason it's never been a problem

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is because these people think they know. They

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don't know because I'm there. I've washed my

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hands next to another woman who's talking about,

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do you have an extra tampon? Well, no, actually,

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I don't. I don't. But, you know, that's what

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we're dealing with. We're dealing with people

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that are very ignorant about people like me.

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Very ignorant. And the thing, too, is like. I

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don't know. I just think a lot of times it's

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funny how people will sexualize drag shows and

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sexualize pride and then these same people, conservatives,

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a lot of times will be going to strip clubs or

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cheating on their wife or having sex with the

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intern. You've got Lauren Boebert who's over

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here groping a man in a theater. She's not married

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to, not the man she's married to. And then her

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own son has been now arrested on child sexual

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exploitation charges. Unbelievable, dude. So

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it's the pot calling the kettle black. So listen,

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I talked about this in our show today on the

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air, on our live show. I said that, you know,

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Whoopi Goldberg, Eddie Murphy, a lot of these

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comics, they have very filthy stand -up acts.

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There was another, there's other comics as well.

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Kevin Hart. Yes. A lot of them. If you go to

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their comedy, their comedy is really, there's

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a lot of profanity and a lot of sexual talk.

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And then they make movies for Disney. You can

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be two things at the same time. Thank you. You

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can do that. This is called, in my industry,

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it's called know your audience. If I see children

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in the crowd, of course I'm not going to show

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my boobs. Of course not. What is wrong with you?

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I mean, seriously. I mean, if I do do it, I should

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be arrested. Yeah, exactly. There's children

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in the audience. If they book me at Disney and

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they say, we want you in this Disney production,

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of course I'm going to be as feminine and as

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classy as I can possibly be to fit into that

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standard. And, you know, Whoopi does it all the

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time. Whoopi and all of these comics that I'm

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talking about have, you know, what I call more

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provocative stand -up acts. But in their, you

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know, she's on The View every day. Whoopi cusses

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like a sailor in private. I can imagine. Never

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guesses on The View. She knows her audience.

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She knows who's paying her. And this is the same

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thing with a drag queen. This idea that drag

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queens cannot control themselves if they see

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children is totally manufactured. It's totally

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manufactured. I'll never forget. In seventh grade,

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my mom, we grew up Catholic, but now my mom's

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pro LGBTQ+. It was a beautiful moment about two

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years ago. She said, love is love. But growing

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up, I had an aunt that was lesbian. And I asked

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her, my mom told me in seventh grade, thinking

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it was going to be a big reaction. And I've always

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just been like, okay, it's still in my hand.

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Like, I just don't understand. I think a lot

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of it's jealousy because they might be in the

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closet or they're just full on bullies. I've

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just never understood why anybody cares. As long

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as you're not hurting animals or kids, why anybody

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would care about if someone's gay? It's crazy

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to me. Well, you know, again, they're not homophobic.

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They're not transphobic. Phobic, again, is a

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phobia means to be afraid. They're not afraid

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of us. They're just assholes. And I'm just being

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honest with you. They really are exactly that.

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And over the course of my life, I've met a lot

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of assholes, a lot of people that enjoy, even

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as a kid, they enjoyed making my life as difficult

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and as complicated as possible. And it's still

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going on. The only problem is that now I'm older

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and I don't give a shit. I don't care what people

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think anymore. You know, I'm on the radio every

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day talking about being trans. Once you talk

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about something and you put it out there, it

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just doesn't matter. You take the power away

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from it. I'm the same way with my bipolar and

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ADHD. Like I have moody, moody days and I'm open

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about it. And people are like, why do you talk

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about taking meds? I'm like, because then you

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have no power over me. So it's a little similar.

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You're taking the stigma away from it. Because

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a lot of people are like that. Chris and I are

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both ADHD. I know I have it really bad. I look

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at Chris for some days and he's literally moving

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all over the place. Like he's totally manic.

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And I do the same thing. I watch myself on video.

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We've been videoing our shows. And I watch myself.

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God, I move around a lot. I can't sit still.

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I touch my face. I touch my hair. I touch my

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chest. I'm like, oh my God. You know, I'm like

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moving and moving. It's part of it. We're just

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very wired up all the time. So when I'm not moving,

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everybody says, are you okay? Is something wrong?

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Because I'm very high energy, high strung. So,

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but yeah. It's not that big of a deal to be trans

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to me. I've been trans my whole life. You know,

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I was trans before. Everybody made it like really

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popular where now people talk about it. You know,

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when I came out as trans back in the 76, you

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know, I was just a kid and nobody talked about

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it. Nobody knew what it was. Nobody understood

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it. We didn't even have a name for it. Transgender

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is a modern word. Well, weren't you the first

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student to go to school as a trans individual

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in this area? Here in Hillsborough County, I

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was the first one. I love it. Yeah, and you know,

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it's really weird about it. Back in those days,

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they didn't know what to do with me. They didn't

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know what to send me to night school. What are

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we going to do with this person? You know, because

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I was so, I don't know if I was stupid or brave.

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I'm still not sure. Some days I think that was

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really stupid. Maybe both. Maybe a little bit

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of both, right? I was so brave to just, but I

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knew this. I knew that I could not live my life,

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my whole life. pretending something that I did

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not feel. When did you realize? I just could

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not do that. For both of you, Chris, when did

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you realize you were gay? And then Esme, when

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did you realize you were trans? Oh, I always

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thought that. So I was told a lot when I was

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growing up that I had to like girls. Like, that's

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just the way that it is. You like girls. But

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the entire time that I was being told that I

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have to like girls, I was looking at guys. That's

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that's that's pretty good. Girls are annoying,

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bro. Well, I I distinctly remember, you know,

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making out with with both girls and boys when

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I was like 10, 11 years old. Yeah. You know,

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it was just the way that it was for just what

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felt right. And I'm curious. I don't think I've

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actually had this discussion with you as may.

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I want to know your answer on this one. So, you

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know, as a little kid, very little. four or five

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years old i was obviously very effeminate um

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and so you know little boys especially in a cuban

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family are not supposed to be feminine so i got

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told constantly act like a boy don't embarrass

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us talk talk like a man you know there's no talking

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like a man this is just the way i found so uh

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but uh it's really weird because i didn't really

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know that i was trans I thought I was gay at

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one point, you know, like maybe like around seven

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or eight years old. I heard about gay people.

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So I thought, well, maybe that's what I'm I'm

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gay, whatever that meant, because I didn't really

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understand the sexual part of it. I just knew

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I liked boys, but I didn't know about the sex.

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I didn't know we were supposed to have sex. That

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came later, like after I grew up. But I think

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that I was probably around 12 or 13 when I was

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I know this is going to sound crazy. I was watching.

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A Wonder Woman, and I remember telling my mom,

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I wish I looked like that. Oh, wow. What's crazy

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is that Linda Carter and I share very similar

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measurements. Mine were manufactured in a doctor's

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office, and hers are natural, but still, I'm

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very curvaceous, extremely so. So I think to

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myself, wow, I was really young that I wanted

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to be. And I remember the only drag queens I

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ever saw was Bugs Bunny. That was like the only

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drag. Like I saw Bugs Bunny getting dragged.

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And I think maybe a boy can dress up like a girl,

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you know, so that I started thinking about it.

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But by age 14, 15, I was ready to go. I was ready

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to put on women's clothes. And I did. My dad

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told me not in this house. And I did it anyway.

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Nice. I'm glad you rebelled. Good job. I did.

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I did. I did it anyway. My poor father. You know,

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my father was my biggest ally. It took him about

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three months. He was he was ready to go. He really,

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really supported me. God rest his soul in glory.

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He died at 100 years old. Oh, nice. He loved

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me unconditionally and saw me and recognized

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me as his daughter. He really did. How do you

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think, no, so he was a great dad. What was your

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favorite memory of him? Oh, my God. Well, probably

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my favorite memory of him is he would take me

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to buy toys. Any toy that I wanted, he would

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take me to buy it. Nice. So I had a great collection

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of, Vintage. I still do have a great collection

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of vintage toys that he bought me. I was a big

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toy kid. I really liked toys a lot. But I have

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great memories of my dad. My dad never beat me,

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never whooped me for being feminine. He just

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never did. My mom was a disciplinarian in the

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house. But back in those days, again, there was

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no trans representation whatsoever. There was

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no RuPaul drag race. My idea of a drag queen

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was Flip Wilson. Remember Flip Wilson's show?

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Yes. Back in the 70s. I've heard of it. Yeah,

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Flip Wilson was a big, you know, but it was all

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good in comedy. Drag was always comical. It was

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not serious. Like what I do is very serious.

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When you see me on stage, I'm not funny at all.

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Yeah. You know, but, you know, back in those

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days, it was all comical. But it's just some

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boys just feel like girls for whatever. fucking

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reason. I don't know why. And I can't stand when

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people ask me, why do you feel like that? I don't

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know. Yes, I got you. If I could explain it,

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if I could explain it, then I would, then I could

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define it and I could have avoided it. I avoided

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all the suffering and the things that I went

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through throughout the course of my life because

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I've lived this way. I would have done everything

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to avoid it. It is what it is. I accepted myself

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a long time ago. Yes, that's beautiful. I'm glad

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you were able to do that, accept who you are.

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How often do you guys get DMs from people either

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saying how happy you are or they are that you're

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representing the LGBTQ plus community? Or how

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often do you guys get advice from anybody in

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the DMs? If you do. So I'm the one who's usually

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in charge of all the social media stuff. So I'm

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kind of the one who fields all that stuff. And

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honestly, it's a lot. It's a lot in both aspects.

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You get people who are really supportive and

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want to see you succeed. One of the biggest things

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was people telling us that they wanted to have

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cameras. That was one of the biggest unsolicited

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advice that we got the entirety of the time that

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we were on air. And now we do. But the main thing,

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that happened in terms of the exact opposite

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way was when we were on the midnight to 3 a .m

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show And Esme, just being the amazing trans person

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that she is, had a very big fan. She would actually

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call about 80 times a show. Oh, wow. And she

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would say as much heinous stuff as possible to

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try and get under Esme's skin. Meanwhile, Esme,

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she's lived as a woman for 50 years. She's 65

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years old. You can't say anything to her that'll

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get her aggravated. I thought it was hilarious.

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Esme. She called me a woman skinner, whatever

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that means. I thought you were 45. You look amazing.

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Yeah, I'm 65. I just turned 65 this year. Damn,

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you look so good. I feel really good. And I'll

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tell you, I got the energy, man. I'm the energizer,

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buddy. I got a lot of energy. I literally wake

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up and I'm like ready to go. Like, you know,

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some people have to work themselves up. I'm like,

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no. But I'm just like my dad. So much like my

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dad. My dad was in his 80s and 90s and he had

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the energy of a 40 -year -old. He was like great.

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Yeah. I feel great. I feel really, really good.

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I've lost 23 pounds. I'm losing more, but I've

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lost 23 pounds, and that weight loss has really

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helped me a lot. Now, for everybody listening,

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go to cltampa .com and click on Best of the Bay

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and vote. What are all the nominations you guys

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have? Oh, well, we've got we've got a ton. I

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keep forgetting. So we've got luckily they actually

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WMNF asked us to do a video. So I actually have

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a list right here. So we're nominated under best

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radio show. Both myself and Esme are nominated

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under best radio personality. So you have to

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choose one under best TV host slash news person.

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The show is best under best morning TV show.

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As well as I got nominated for Best Community

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Organizer and Best Columnist. And our bingo,

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which helps support the show, WMNF's Big Gay

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Bingo was also nominated. Well, before I let

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you guys go, promote yourself. Say what you got

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to say. You guys have the floor. Oh, well, Esme,

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I'm going to go ahead and take this moment to

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say how much I love you, Esme, and how grateful

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I am that I get to host a show alongside such

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an amazing person. And I will always highlight

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the fact that Esme Russell is truly a legend

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in this area. She's the first lady of Gabor,

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and she is just absolutely amazing. Yeah, thank

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you so much, Chris. I really appreciate that.

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We have a great working relationship here, and

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it's really good. We do fight. We do fight. A

00:20:48.250 --> 00:20:52.609
lot of times. Especially about topics, or I get

00:20:52.609 --> 00:20:57.529
distracted. But we have a good show. It's a good

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family environment. And then our rotating hosts

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are also very good. Brian, Joanna, Vin. And then

00:21:04.829 --> 00:21:07.529
we also have Claire. Claire. And Sean Kelly.

00:21:07.660 --> 00:21:10.559
I'm behind the scenes. So, you know, we do have

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a really good team here of people that help us

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every week to keep the show running good. So

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we're very blessed. I'm very grateful for everybody.

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And, you know, the nominations are great, but

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it's really weird. I used to watch entertainers,

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like famous people would get nominated for Academy

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Awards, and they'd go, well, I was just making

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a movie. I wasn't really trying to win an Academy

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Award. And that's how I feel about this. I'm

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just doing my radio gig. You know what I'm saying?

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I'm not thinking, well, if I do, if I say this,

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I'll get, I'll get attention for it. You know,

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I was watching our video from last week and I'm

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laughing at how funny I am when I'm being serious.

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I'm just being serious. And it sounds funny when

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I, when I watched myself say it, I went, oh my

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God, that sounded so funny, but I wasn't being

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funny at the time. So, you know, we're just trying

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to do our thing and whatever happens happens.

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And we're kind of piggybacking on, you know,

00:22:02.500 --> 00:22:05.859
why we do the show. And talking on the previous

00:22:05.859 --> 00:22:10.220
topic, we used to also get letters from inmates

00:22:10.220 --> 00:22:14.460
all over the seven county area where we broadcasted.

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And they would they would tell how much they

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feel like they actually have a connection to

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the community. And that's why we do it. We don't

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do it for a piece of paper. We do it because

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it's needed. The conversations are needed. I

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really wanted to normalize trans people as best

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I could while I was on the air. That's always

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been my goal. To just see that we're not hatched.

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You know, that I'm not some weirdo out there,

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you know, trying to sneak into women's. When

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I go in the bathroom, I'm going in there to pee.

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I don't care what your wife looks like. I really

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don't. You know, I'm just telling you, I'm not

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interested in none of that. You know, as I say

00:22:48.140 --> 00:22:50.980
all the time in my stand -up act in my show,

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I ain't had pussy since pussy had me. So, you

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know, there is no need. There's absolutely no

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need for you to worry about your wife or your

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girlfriend or your children or whatever. I'm

00:23:02.000 --> 00:23:04.180
not interested in. I'm not interested in none

00:23:04.180 --> 00:23:07.539
of that. I like men. Thank you for leaving. Thank

00:23:07.539 --> 00:23:09.779
you for leaving the pussy for me. Thank you.

00:23:13.319 --> 00:23:15.779
So, yeah, you know, I just, but I did want to

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normalize trans people as much as you know, that

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we have families and we have brothers and sisters

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and we have struggles that, you know, we go to

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the grocery store. We, you know, I got to go

00:23:23.180 --> 00:23:24.619
to Walmart when I get out of here. I got to go

00:23:24.619 --> 00:23:27.079
to the bank. All the normal stuff everybody does.

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I'm doing the same thing. Trans people are not

00:23:29.480 --> 00:23:32.680
some weirdo trying to dress up. I'm not trying

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to act like anybody. If you walk up and ask me,

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are you transgender? Are you a guy? I'll go,

00:23:37.099 --> 00:23:40.180
yeah, I am. What? I'm not one of those people

00:23:40.180 --> 00:23:42.380
trying to hide it. I don't care that you know.

00:23:42.480 --> 00:23:45.039
It doesn't bother me at all. I'm not trying to

00:23:45.039 --> 00:23:47.859
keep it a secret. If I blend in, great. But if

00:23:47.859 --> 00:23:50.819
I don't, that's okay as well. At this stage in

00:23:50.819 --> 00:23:53.319
the game, I just don't care. It doesn't matter

00:23:53.319 --> 00:23:55.900
to me. Well, that's why you guys are legends.

00:23:56.160 --> 00:23:58.619
You guys are the goats of the area. And it's

00:23:58.619 --> 00:24:01.079
been a lot of fun having you on the show. And

00:24:01.079 --> 00:24:03.880
if you ever need anything promoted on the show,

00:24:04.039 --> 00:24:07.339
let me know. I am a text away. We appreciate

00:24:07.339 --> 00:24:09.359
that. Thanks for the time. Thank you so much

00:24:09.359 --> 00:24:11.880
for having us. Thank you, Esme. And thank you,

00:24:11.880 --> 00:24:14.140
Chris Gorman from the Big Gay Radio Show. Thank

00:24:14.140 --> 00:24:17.099
you, guys. Bye -bye. Have a good one. Bye, guys.

00:24:18.720 --> 00:24:37.509
And that is that. RyanHoppyRadio .com The hour

00:24:37.509 --> 00:24:39.890
will be right back. You probably had Taco Bell

00:24:39.890 --> 00:24:44.809
before. Whenever we're going outside, all I smell

00:24:44.809 --> 00:24:48.549
is poop. We also need to be affectionate. And

00:24:48.549 --> 00:24:51.690
you can see that with Barack and Michelle as

00:24:51.690 --> 00:24:54.910
well. They do a lot of touching, kissing, even

00:24:54.910 --> 00:25:01.990
fisting. The semen was so big. It's not lacking

00:25:01.990 --> 00:25:04.599
any meat. And that's what real... i'm in need

00:25:04.599 --> 00:25:10.700
stop cussing it looks like you went and got a

00:25:10.700 --> 00:25:13.519
job not on the ipad screen whatever the case

00:25:13.519 --> 00:25:15.759
might be in your hand and a sock you know whatever

00:25:15.759 --> 00:25:19.859
like thank you but also i would love to be getting

00:25:19.859 --> 00:26:27.289
railed but We'll be right back. Fade to every

00:26:27.289 --> 00:26:31.829
block From the docks to every porch Names get

00:26:31.829 --> 00:26:36.549
sent the right way And nobody backs off If they

00:26:36.549 --> 00:26:41.250
come for somebody They come through us all We

00:26:41.250 --> 00:26:44.349
don't lower our voices We don't answer their

00:26:44.349 --> 00:26:49.690
call Hear the phone start ringing Hear the truth

00:26:49.690 --> 00:26:54.990
get loud Hands up in the hallway Feet on solid

00:27:17.359 --> 00:27:21.160
Big day radio show. When the weak ones start

00:27:21.160 --> 00:27:25.880
their noise, we turn up to love. Every name,

00:27:25.900 --> 00:27:30.579
everybody fits here under the sun. Tampa Bay,

00:27:30.819 --> 00:27:36.059
say it clear, we protect all. From the mic to

00:27:36.059 --> 00:27:42.420
the street, we are never alone. Big day radio

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show. Big day. Oh, yeah. Search Hoppy Radio for

00:28:18.829 --> 00:28:45.720
more Hoppy Hour. Oh, jeez. It's just so unfair.

00:28:50.940 --> 00:28:53.339
All night's buzzing, but the laughter's growing

00:28:53.339 --> 00:28:56.380
dim. Ear drums mix and hop me like fingers without

00:28:56.380 --> 00:28:59.680
rings. VHX to FM, shout out to the street. But

00:28:59.680 --> 00:29:01.779
soon the sound will vanish like shadows in the

00:29:01.779 --> 00:29:05.720
heat. The happy hour is coming to a close. Radio

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00:29:08.599 --> 00:29:11.740
joy dissolving in the air will keep the rhythm.

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All night's just so unfair. Outro Music Like

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clockwork to a show Now it's time to face the

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silence Like a TV on snow Riot Hoppy held the

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mic With humor so divine The void left in our

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hearts Wider than a canyon line Line Empty speakers,

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silent thighs But coming to an end Like a rollercoaster

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stopping Round a river's bend Hoppy's jokes and

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jacks He's our daily grind Now silence louder

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Than the thoughts we can't rewind So the Hoppy

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hour is coming Outro Music And like that, he's

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gone. He probably had Taco Bell before. Whenever

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we're going outside, all I smell is poop. I'll

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kick you a little. And we'll call it a day. Poppy

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Hour is now over. Poppy Hour is now over. Game

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over. This concludes our broadcast day. Good

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night, and God bless America. Door is closing.