From Appearance to Ability (ep 17)

When I chose the phrase my Body can, I thought it was just a motivating name, a reminder that I could rebuild myself after years of illness, injury, and hormonal chaos. I liked the sound of it, the energy of it, the quiet encouragement hidden inside it. But I didn’t think too deeply beyond that. It was a spark I grabbed onto because something in me felt ready to shift.

But something’s been nagging at me while I’ve been recording the social media videos on Instagram and YouTube: I don’t fully believe it yet.And I’m still saying it anyway.

There’s something strangely powerful about saying a phrase you’re still growing into. It feels like planting a seed in yourself , not because you’re already confident, but because you’re choosing to nurture the version of yourself who will believe it. The tension between who I’ve been and who I’m practicing becoming is the heart of this episode.

This whole project has pushed me into a very uncomfortable but necessary space: the space where I notice how much my confidence wavers. How quickly I compare myself to people in workout videos. How easily my eyes dart to my stomach in the mirror. How often I think, “Surely I should be further along by now.”

And yet… I keep going.

Because this project was never actually about looking better.It was about moving through the world better: stairs, suitcases, sitting, standing, balance, flexibility, and the everyday strength I lost after years of physical chaos.

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