S2018 Ep27: WANTING MORE - (poem for #AudioMo Day 18)

Wanting more

I’ve always been found

wanting more than a woodpecker carves

into the last tree

in the last forest,

wanting more

than my parents ever offered,

– even more than father bestowed

on one of his good days.

I was born wanting more time for love.

I’ve grown hungrier by the day,

thirstier by night,

always grasping for clean air.

There’s never been a father more loved,

ever since letters of infinity

were strung together

on a necklace

that shines with promise

and gradually shrinks

until it chokes

the living daylight out of me.

I’ve always wanted to beg.

Like most beggars,

my voice has been feeble

– barely enough courage

to pay the price father demanded.

I’ve always been found

wanting to trust more.

I’m used to starving.

Bless me Father,

for I have sinned

on a daily basis.

Let me do penance

– only let me have time to pay.

#audiomo 2018