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WEBVTT 1 00:00:03.680 --> 00:00:15.400 Hey, Um, got it, uh, you know, right, right, 2 00:00:15.480 --> 00:00:18.559 in an example of a good example, you know. Yeah, that 3 00:00:18.600 --> 00:00:22.920 works for you or something like that. Yeah, exactly, helpful. It's 4 00:00:23.199 --> 00:00:26.399 it's definitely, uh, it's definitely there. And when I want to get 5 00:00:26.399 --> 00:00:30.760 there eventually, I'm just scared, scared, scared of what. So right 6 00:00:30.800 --> 00:00:34.399 now they can people being rude. I'm not. I'm not. My skin 7 00:00:34.520 --> 00:00:37.280 is not thick enough yet. Mind it. So I'll read them. It's 8 00:00:37.320 --> 00:00:41.719 fine, care I listen. I'm worse of a person than any human being. 9 00:00:42.479 --> 00:00:45.479 Okay, and that's at you know, I can, right, I 10 00:00:45.520 --> 00:00:49.439 can boil your blood and half a second. Okay, yeah, you can. 11 00:00:51.039 --> 00:00:56.159 No, like even less than that in half the sentence if you say 12 00:00:56.799 --> 00:01:00.399 relax or grow up. I'm waiting for another one to pop up, but 13 00:01:00.439 --> 00:01:03.000 I don't. I haven't heard it yet and I don't know it right now. 14 00:01:06.959 --> 00:01:08.560 What was what was that last word? Do you want to be canceled? 15 00:01:10.480 --> 00:01:14.879 There you go. Um, well, you're lucky that it cut out. 16 00:01:15.560 --> 00:01:18.439 You're very lucky that it cut out. Why I was wrong with that 17 00:01:18.480 --> 00:01:23.680 word. What? Where did you say? Oh my God, you've been 18 00:01:23.719 --> 00:01:27.359 living in Florida too long, man, not too long. Literally, haven't 19 00:01:27.359 --> 00:01:34.480 said that word since high school and I appreciate you. You fired me up. 20 00:01:34.519 --> 00:01:40.239 You got it point proven. But that's so weird, like saying now 21 00:01:40.280 --> 00:01:42.439 that I say that, it's like remember that when, like way back in 22 00:01:42.480 --> 00:01:47.879 the day, when like Jenko jeans? Remember those people? Oh yeah, 23 00:01:48.040 --> 00:01:51.840 like people would would say that to like I mean like Oh, you're a 24 00:01:51.840 --> 00:01:56.400 loser. Yeah, like that show wouldn't fly today. No, but you 25 00:01:56.439 --> 00:02:00.760 know what, I was listening to Green Day. What I was listening to 26 00:02:00.879 --> 00:02:06.120 Green Day, and it's one of us, shut up, man, Green 27 00:02:06.879 --> 00:02:15.719 Day. What what songs body? But yeah, it's I don't know, 28 00:02:15.759 --> 00:02:20.680 it's a little much, I think. What were they saying? Are you 29 00:02:20.719 --> 00:02:23.960 saying that they said the F word, that you just said that F word? 30 00:02:24.560 --> 00:02:29.080 UH, yeah, I mean fucking sign of the time. I'm putting 31 00:02:29.080 --> 00:02:30.319 that out. I don't want to cut too much out today, but yeah, 32 00:02:30.360 --> 00:02:35.840 I know. No, yeah, you're right. And you know what 33 00:02:35.879 --> 00:02:39.919 I think it is? We tried so hard to learn how to be politically 34 00:02:40.000 --> 00:02:44.680 correct back in between our generation. Wait, wait, let me finish, 35 00:02:44.840 --> 00:02:49.560 between our generation and Gen z. That mess everything up, and now every 36 00:02:49.599 --> 00:02:54.439 person is so sensitive to anything like you say. If you say like Oh 37 00:02:54.719 --> 00:02:59.280 um, you know why did you say that about? I don't want to 38 00:02:59.319 --> 00:03:01.840 get troubly. I know. Yeah, I know what you're saying, though, 39 00:03:02.680 --> 00:03:08.280 like Comedians, like fucking Comedians, the whole job is to take yeah, 40 00:03:09.159 --> 00:03:15.639 they draw the they're supposed to find the line. Professional comedian. I 41 00:03:15.639 --> 00:03:19.439 think it was Bill Burr, perfectly, oh man. Yeah, but hey, 42 00:03:19.520 --> 00:03:23.879 if you tell a joke and they joke does not offend, it doesn't 43 00:03:23.919 --> 00:03:29.280 offend anybody in the audience. It's not a good joke. True. Yeah, 44 00:03:29.560 --> 00:03:31.599 I mean, Damn, those bombs. Even I can't take. Some 45 00:03:31.680 --> 00:03:38.000 of them are like yeah, he says, he says one of uh, 46 00:03:38.120 --> 00:03:40.879 he says one about single MOMS. I love. That's my favorite one. 47 00:03:40.879 --> 00:03:45.479 I know. I was like I was like cringing, but I actually was 48 00:03:45.520 --> 00:03:50.560 like he does funny, not tastefully, but like funny. You know, 49 00:03:50.599 --> 00:03:54.840 it's everything funny, but he's just do it for shock factors. Yeah, 50 00:03:55.639 --> 00:04:01.159 yeah, I don't know. Yeah, is so for it's such a weird 51 00:04:01.240 --> 00:04:06.159 like border that he's able to bosome. Yeah, you're right, that's what 52 00:04:06.199 --> 00:04:12.560 it is from Boston. Or if you know, you know, you know, 53 00:04:12.719 --> 00:04:17.639 you know. Well, okay, so let's go with folks at home. 54 00:04:17.680 --> 00:04:23.160 How you're doing? How I'm doing? I don't know. I can. 55 00:04:23.279 --> 00:04:26.319 I like this conversation. We're happy. Oh Yeah, you want to 56 00:04:26.319 --> 00:04:32.120 start. What's up? What's up everybody? Thanks for jointing. Now what's 57 00:04:32.199 --> 00:04:39.000 up everyone? This is Bellamars. I just interrupt ellamarsh, buddy streams this 58 00:04:39.079 --> 00:04:42.800 thing. Okay, now what I know? Well, we can do the 59 00:04:42.959 --> 00:04:46.439 video next time, but I'm gonna have to like that was the other question 60 00:04:46.439 --> 00:04:49.279 I had for you was that. SHOULD WE DO VIDEO? You think something 61 00:04:49.639 --> 00:04:55.879 eventually, soon or soon? Yeah, when I look, I gotta figure 62 00:04:55.879 --> 00:04:59.399 out how I want to look, like the letting and all that. You 63 00:04:59.439 --> 00:05:01.079 know all. You know what else we should do? We can do the 64 00:05:01.160 --> 00:05:04.279 live stream and I just will turn my comments off, like you're saying. 65 00:05:08.160 --> 00:05:11.680 I will turn mine off. You see them, I don't want to see 66 00:05:11.720 --> 00:05:15.800 them. Yeah, that's what I'm saying. You can see I'll turn them 67 00:05:15.800 --> 00:05:18.480 off. No, I want to see your comments and, Um, I 68 00:05:18.519 --> 00:05:23.240 want to read them. Yes, but I'm saying I don't want to read 69 00:05:23.399 --> 00:05:27.920 or see them, but you will see all of it and then just just 70 00:05:28.040 --> 00:05:30.560 throw in like just a fake one and be like, Oh, they say 71 00:05:30.639 --> 00:05:35.120 you're you're doing a really good job, great, like you're all going to 72 00:05:35.560 --> 00:05:39.439 crush on you and you know they're all going to be like, oh, 73 00:05:39.600 --> 00:05:45.879 she's a fucking she's, because they're not like Holi, we went to high 74 00:05:45.879 --> 00:05:48.480 school with. These are like, you know, kids. Probably, if 75 00:05:48.480 --> 00:05:51.439 that listens, I don't know. You have the stats. I don't. 76 00:05:51.519 --> 00:05:58.319 Oh my God, my they're my fag love, just getting att have a 77 00:05:58.319 --> 00:06:00.480 thing. Sure, go ranching. I'd be like, okay, if everybody 78 00:06:00.480 --> 00:06:09.240 whoever watches, I'll send you a picture of Mike, only for free and 79 00:06:09.319 --> 00:06:15.079 by two friends. If I hit five hundred subs today, then and bucks 80 00:06:15.079 --> 00:06:18.879 of Raffle free only fans, and we don't. We don't happen. Only 81 00:06:18.959 --> 00:06:21.879 time, you know. So Um, yeah, that's a great way to 82 00:06:21.920 --> 00:06:26.800 scan someone. So, anyways, that's a good idea. Who wants to 83 00:06:26.839 --> 00:06:31.279 see? Because if I hate subs, now everyone has crushing on like gaming 84 00:06:31.319 --> 00:06:38.040 girls and cool girls and like, Um uh. First of all, I 85 00:06:38.040 --> 00:06:41.480 don't know why animal is so popular. Never Watch it. Don't get it. 86 00:06:41.759 --> 00:06:47.959 Um, but people like have with fucking oriental girls and man, I 87 00:06:48.000 --> 00:06:53.399 did like I did a couple. I did a sailor moon, but like 88 00:06:53.920 --> 00:06:57.240 half asked because I don't have it. I got it like an outfit Oh 89 00:06:57.279 --> 00:07:00.680 my God, I can't tell you how many, like whatever. And then 90 00:07:00.839 --> 00:07:08.160 socks, pictures anywhere, like what I wear, knee high socks, and 91 00:07:08.240 --> 00:07:12.000 like normal, like I'm definitely not like, Oh yeah, I'm sure, 92 00:07:12.079 --> 00:07:15.319 I'm sure, you have no idea what you're doing. I really don't think 93 00:07:17.519 --> 00:07:19.800 well done, we want to buy me socks. Now I'm like, okay, 94 00:07:20.000 --> 00:07:24.839 buy me socks and you get, you get an exclusive set of pictures. 95 00:07:25.720 --> 00:07:28.439 I'll I'm gonna text you after this. I need some new ones. 96 00:07:30.399 --> 00:07:35.560 Okay. Well, you wear boxer briefs? Yeah, don't worry about it, 97 00:07:35.600 --> 00:07:42.120 okay, and box of briefs, box of briefs. All right, 98 00:07:42.759 --> 00:07:47.720 what's up, everybody? This take three. WHAT'S UP, everybody? This 99 00:07:47.759 --> 00:07:53.480 is Bella Mars and I'm here with Ricky Boreas, who continues to interrupt me, 100 00:07:54.000 --> 00:07:58.399 but he um, he's here again. Say, what's up, unprofessional? 101 00:07:58.800 --> 00:08:03.160 What? Hi, everybody. Yeah, that was professional. I love 102 00:08:03.160 --> 00:08:07.639 myself. Um, what's up people out there? We're gonna. Hey, 103 00:08:07.720 --> 00:08:11.079 we could do that's a little lesson today, a lesson on life, love 104 00:08:11.360 --> 00:08:16.160 and maybe something else. Well, Um, so, I don't Miss It. 105 00:08:18.040 --> 00:08:22.519 No, take it away. So what we were talking about earlier? 106 00:08:22.800 --> 00:08:26.720 Well, we're talking about a couple of things. We're talking about comedians pushing 107 00:08:26.720 --> 00:08:28.680 the line, but we kind of moved on from that. Then we're talking 108 00:08:28.720 --> 00:08:35.600 about how we should move forward to the next level of professionalism as it relates 109 00:08:35.679 --> 00:08:41.919 to this podcast. When should we take it to a Vidka? No, 110 00:08:43.159 --> 00:08:48.759 livestream. No, taking video clips, and then I don't like seeing your 111 00:08:48.759 --> 00:08:56.759 face like this. Taking video clips to promote the podcast. Now I can't 112 00:08:56.759 --> 00:08:58.919 hear. And then, uh, because right as it is, right now, 113 00:09:00.279 --> 00:09:03.080 if I wanted, we can post it on Youtube, but you need 114 00:09:03.080 --> 00:09:09.440 to tell me like a good level. Oh No, alright, the closest. 115 00:09:09.080 --> 00:09:13.639 Alright, talk normal. I'M gonna say. Wait, too far. 116 00:09:15.600 --> 00:09:18.919 Yeah, now I hear like an echo. Okay, and then, all 117 00:09:18.960 --> 00:09:22.240 right, so I called Bella. No, you're good. You're good when 118 00:09:22.279 --> 00:09:31.159 you're okay, when you're all the way up my good here. Okay, 119 00:09:31.279 --> 00:09:35.240 am I good here? Yes, what do I need? What do we 120 00:09:35.320 --> 00:09:41.360 need to add to expenses so I can write this off as an expense? 121 00:09:43.759 --> 00:09:50.600 Okay, no, no, I mean the thing. Yeah, that's good. 122 00:09:50.720 --> 00:09:54.759 Yeah, that's good. Oh, ship, you want to see me? 123 00:09:54.799 --> 00:10:01.360 Obviously, don't look. It's a big speaker right here. I talk 124 00:10:01.440 --> 00:10:05.399 into this. That probably work if it's a speaker, though. It's not 125 00:10:05.480 --> 00:10:09.039 a microphone, I think it. Yeah, I don't know if it is 126 00:10:09.080 --> 00:10:15.159 there, whether there be a microphone on a speaker as well. Yeah, 127 00:10:15.279 --> 00:10:18.480 but I'm not. I don't want all right, so okay, let me 128 00:10:18.480 --> 00:10:22.120 think. Oh, maybe like a Bluetooth microphone. That's dope. That's what 129 00:10:22.159 --> 00:10:26.039 I meant to do right before, because I was like I meant I said, 130 00:10:26.080 --> 00:10:33.279 Hey, give me to a fifteen to sorry folks at home about this 131 00:10:33.360 --> 00:10:35.919 is a lesson in being prepared, all right, and this is we're just 132 00:10:35.320 --> 00:10:39.720 we're messing around. This is called an unpreparedness. Don't we look foolish? 133 00:10:39.879 --> 00:10:41.519 That's right. You don't want to look like this, you know. On 134 00:10:41.559 --> 00:10:46.120 that note, and I also wanted to mention that, I don't feel like 135 00:10:46.200 --> 00:10:50.759 I'm very confident in myself. However, I do want to mention we are 136 00:10:50.799 --> 00:10:54.320 still learning. This is like less we're still less than ten episodes. So 137 00:10:54.480 --> 00:10:58.840 thank you for your patients. For that, I can't tell. I think 138 00:11:00.000 --> 00:11:03.480 are getting better and better. So I don't know what I think. I 139 00:11:03.559 --> 00:11:07.840 have them. Oh, no, I gave the adapter to my father. 140 00:11:07.919 --> 00:11:13.279 I think your father, man. I know I said that's so bad fun 141 00:11:13.399 --> 00:11:16.360 all you. Okay? So, yeah, so I'm not gonna be able 142 00:11:16.399 --> 00:11:20.840 to do that. So you guys gonna have to enjoy me in the in 143 00:11:20.879 --> 00:11:24.799 the raw form. You know what? What else will helped? Because every 144 00:11:24.840 --> 00:11:28.559 once in a while, like if I'm saying and then you want to say 145 00:11:28.600 --> 00:11:31.080 something right away, because actually works out great. Um, it doesn't let 146 00:11:31.120 --> 00:11:35.960 us talk over each other, like what, cuts off like that? Right. 147 00:11:35.159 --> 00:11:41.919 Yeah, so that gets perfect. So, AH, we'll get you 148 00:11:43.000 --> 00:11:45.600 set up. What do you have a laptop? Do you have a laptop? 149 00:11:46.960 --> 00:11:48.159 I mean, I have a deathtop over there. I could try, 150 00:11:48.159 --> 00:11:50.679 but I don't. Once again, I don't want everyone here in our ship. 151 00:11:52.440 --> 00:11:56.960 What? What? What? How is it different? Because the deathtop 152 00:11:58.080 --> 00:12:03.200 isn't okay, so in your room. It's in the office and the office 153 00:12:03.320 --> 00:12:05.639 is closer. First of all, it's like all wooden in there, so 154 00:12:05.679 --> 00:12:11.399 it's like wait, but it's great, Um, the bedroom. So I 155 00:12:11.440 --> 00:12:18.279 don't rile the dogs up and ship. That would be yeah, Um, 156 00:12:18.320 --> 00:12:20.840 but I don't care. I'll try, because I was gonna try it anyways, 157 00:12:20.919 --> 00:12:24.799 and then see if it's better. But that's probably when we do a 158 00:12:24.879 --> 00:12:28.600 video, because that will probably Oh yeah, that'd be good. Yeah, 159 00:12:28.759 --> 00:12:35.000 because then you're my video is horrid. What is this landscape? Horizontal? 160 00:12:35.720 --> 00:12:41.279 You're portrait really get yours? Mine is because mine's on the computer with the 161 00:12:41.360 --> 00:12:48.919 camp yeah, okay. So, so my new computer. You're like, 162 00:12:50.000 --> 00:12:52.399 Oh, it must be nice. Yeah, I spent five dollars. It's 163 00:12:52.440 --> 00:12:58.480 not even like a big deal. Oh, I know. All Right, 164 00:12:58.480 --> 00:13:03.200 Um, so you got you go look at this. I'm so professional right 165 00:13:03.200 --> 00:13:07.440 now. Watch this. Wait, what the Hell's going on? It's the 166 00:13:09.080 --> 00:13:13.120 honey. I shrunk the kids. Honey. Yeah, do you remember that 167 00:13:13.159 --> 00:13:16.879 movie from the nineties? Yeah, I love the movie. What are you 168 00:13:16.879 --> 00:13:20.480 talking about? What's the grass? The grass in the background? I don't 169 00:13:20.480 --> 00:13:24.080 see any grass in the background. I don't either, but you had it 170 00:13:24.120 --> 00:13:28.320 about two minutes ago. Are you sure it's a plant? It just shows 171 00:13:28.360 --> 00:13:35.159 up. I'm talking about the zoom background. Nothing happens, right, oh, 172 00:13:35.320 --> 00:13:39.080 it's just showing a filter. I'm an idiot. Okay, and just 173 00:13:39.120 --> 00:13:43.639 the picture. As you know, what, today is not my day. 174 00:13:43.639 --> 00:13:48.759 I want to talk about that. Yeah, let's let's uh like Doctor S. 175 00:13:48.759 --> 00:13:52.519 Well, Um, I'm gonna shrink the kids. Or do you want 176 00:13:52.559 --> 00:13:54.559 it to be on the Golden Gate Bridge, or do you want me to 177 00:13:54.600 --> 00:13:58.600 be out and out of space. Let's do space. You got a baby, 178 00:13:58.639 --> 00:14:05.120 all right, Um, I don't get out here. How do you 179 00:14:05.159 --> 00:14:09.399 hear? How do you go out? Oh, my God, in space. 180 00:14:09.399 --> 00:14:13.120 I don't know. Oh, there you are, you. You got 181 00:14:13.120 --> 00:14:22.000 a concert back from it in cooling men. So that's why I have the 182 00:14:22.039 --> 00:14:30.759 house alone again on Friday. Everyone's going on vacation without me. Why? 183 00:14:31.759 --> 00:14:35.720 Why didn't? Yeah, you know, you have you noticed the theme here 184 00:14:35.759 --> 00:14:41.879 in my family? Yeah, they love going on vacation without me. I'm 185 00:14:41.879 --> 00:14:43.639 not gonna like. I mean, that happens to me too, but I 186 00:14:43.639 --> 00:14:48.679 want to hear you. You're you, nothing at all. Just that is 187 00:14:48.720 --> 00:14:54.559 exactly it. But that's weird. But what happened was my sisters. So 188 00:14:54.879 --> 00:14:58.120 my it's weird, because you tell me if this isn't weird. My Mom 189 00:14:58.120 --> 00:15:03.799 and dad's good friend and who lived in here. We're probably the richest people 190 00:15:03.840 --> 00:15:09.919 in here, right, but there are great friends, good people. Um, 191 00:15:09.080 --> 00:15:13.960 and then they recently sold their house and moved. They had a house 192 00:15:13.960 --> 00:15:18.840 in Colorado as well, so they live out there now. They have some 193 00:15:18.360 --> 00:15:22.440 businesses, you know, they have a bunch of businesses and property around here. 194 00:15:22.559 --> 00:15:28.360 So sometimes they're over here. ANYWAYS, they're up north. They see 195 00:15:28.399 --> 00:15:31.720 my sister a lot and brother in law a lot because they're up there in 196 00:15:31.759 --> 00:15:37.840 that area. Because another one of our friends in here down that where you 197 00:15:37.879 --> 00:15:43.519 are right now? Yeah, in the SCULF community, right, my parents, 198 00:15:43.679 --> 00:15:46.840 my parents friends. So one of them sold in here, lives in 199 00:15:46.879 --> 00:15:50.159 Colorado, the other one, but he traveled to Um, where my sisters 200 00:15:50.200 --> 00:15:54.360 at, visited my sister because he he was in Maine and in the era 201 00:15:54.480 --> 00:15:56.639 he dropped by my sisters and brother in law's house to say hi, right, 202 00:15:58.639 --> 00:16:00.759 and then he invited them out, you know, one of those like 203 00:16:02.120 --> 00:16:06.639 half as rich people invites, like hey, come out to our place, 204 00:16:06.720 --> 00:16:11.519 about park city? Yeah, it's Utah, not Colorado, and it's like 205 00:16:11.799 --> 00:16:17.559 fucking crazy, I guess, but you know why. But so they said 206 00:16:17.639 --> 00:16:19.320 yes and they did it and they made plans to do it and then my 207 00:16:19.399 --> 00:16:23.759 mom and dad decided to go to they said Hey, mom and dad, 208 00:16:23.759 --> 00:16:27.000 you should do this too. Like first of all my mom and dad were 209 00:16:27.039 --> 00:16:34.559 like kind of weird that you're making vacations plans with our friends Um, but 210 00:16:34.720 --> 00:16:41.519 we're coming. I go, Oh, you guys are losers. I said, 211 00:16:41.519 --> 00:16:44.559 didn't this happen? Uh, four and a half weeks ago too, 212 00:16:44.639 --> 00:16:47.799 and I take care of everything. Yeah, it did. Didn't happen when 213 00:16:47.799 --> 00:16:52.000 my best friend's wedding. Yeah, you guys, fucking everyone. Good night. 214 00:16:52.919 --> 00:17:02.240 And do you at that corner? You know? I'm just like, 215 00:17:02.480 --> 00:17:06.279 at least they ask me. You know what it is. If you know 216 00:17:06.359 --> 00:17:08.480 him, dead broke, if you know, I have because if that's your 217 00:17:08.480 --> 00:17:11.359 concern, if you have, I mean I don't know what else you can 218 00:17:11.359 --> 00:17:15.960 say. If I if you knew for a fact I had negative two million 219 00:17:15.000 --> 00:17:18.119 dollars in my account, please ask me. Let me tell you. I 220 00:17:18.160 --> 00:17:22.720 can't. You're not gonna go and invite yourself. You are polite enough to 221 00:17:22.799 --> 00:17:30.240 invite. Ask for wait for the invitation and I ain't going to. Let's 222 00:17:27.440 --> 00:17:34.680 get invite me. I'm not going. But they invited my sister first and 223 00:17:34.680 --> 00:17:38.640 then my parents. I can tell you exactly why. Why He'p please tell 224 00:17:38.680 --> 00:17:45.039 me, because you do not have a significant other. You have. Why 225 00:17:45.039 --> 00:17:53.319 did they invite my Um, sister or brother in law at all? Sister 226 00:17:53.519 --> 00:17:59.359 and brother in law, they're a couple. whine. Why invite them at 227 00:17:59.400 --> 00:18:04.960 all? Because there are a couple? There's Are you? Do you have 228 00:18:06.000 --> 00:18:10.359 a significant out of there to go on this trip. No, but there's 229 00:18:10.400 --> 00:18:14.000 like, okay, it happens to me all the time. That's why I'm 230 00:18:14.039 --> 00:18:18.880 saying that. The point is there's no special this is an imprompt to invite. 231 00:18:18.920 --> 00:18:22.359 It wasn't planned, it wasn't nothing. And then for them to say, 232 00:18:22.759 --> 00:18:27.839 Mom and Dad, you should come, it's just very weird. Well, 233 00:18:29.359 --> 00:18:33.440 can I guarantee you if I did have a significant other, they wouldn't 234 00:18:33.440 --> 00:18:36.720 ask me. has nothing to do with that. The fact is it's just 235 00:18:36.880 --> 00:18:41.279 sucking weird. My parents friends asked my hang out with my sister's younger than 236 00:18:41.319 --> 00:18:45.480 me. That's fucking weird, no matter how you put it. Okay, 237 00:18:45.680 --> 00:18:49.440 well, I I agree it's weird, and them for the and then for 238 00:18:49.480 --> 00:18:56.000 them to ask my invite my parents to their own friend's house. Yeah, 239 00:18:56.000 --> 00:19:02.319 that's weird, but they don't work. Who you're parents and you work. 240 00:19:03.680 --> 00:19:07.359 So what's your point? My point is if they're going to invite people, 241 00:19:07.359 --> 00:19:11.480 they're going to invite the people that have but they don't an entire like I 242 00:19:11.519 --> 00:19:15.759 do have that fucking entire like. I have an entire month off, you 243 00:19:15.799 --> 00:19:19.160 know, or and you can take time off, and they know that I've 244 00:19:19.200 --> 00:19:25.200 worked for him he knows that. The point is it's not just niceolated incident. 245 00:19:25.200 --> 00:19:29.680 It happens a lot, and that's where I'm saying it's because you don't 246 00:19:29.680 --> 00:19:36.680 have a significant other. So it becomes like we're going as couples. Because 247 00:19:36.720 --> 00:19:41.079 it happens to me all the time. I can invite it anymore. The 248 00:19:41.160 --> 00:19:45.480 reason that I bring it up and say the fact that it's happened a lot 249 00:19:45.519 --> 00:19:49.279 before is because before I've had significant others, it still didn't happen. Have 250 00:19:49.440 --> 00:19:56.200 had whatever the funk you said and didn't happen. It's just weird, excuse 251 00:19:56.279 --> 00:20:00.400 you can. It's just weird and you grew. My parents said it's weird 252 00:20:00.400 --> 00:20:03.960 and then they go, yeah, we're coming. So, yeah, I'm 253 00:20:03.000 --> 00:20:06.839 not complaining that. I have the house to myself. That's great. What 254 00:20:06.880 --> 00:20:10.519 I'm saying that's weird, like that's weird. Watch the F but yeah, 255 00:20:10.519 --> 00:20:14.160 how about this? Uh, they take all the families. They take my 256 00:20:14.240 --> 00:20:17.799 sister and her boyfriend, they take my brother and her boyfriend and they all 257 00:20:17.799 --> 00:20:21.680 go to Hawaii and they all go to San Francisco. They don't even ask 258 00:20:22.039 --> 00:20:26.039 me, and my brother worried, my dad and my Stepma. Yeah, 259 00:20:26.039 --> 00:20:30.000 well, these people are these are my actual family. They don't ask me 260 00:20:30.079 --> 00:20:33.559 to come with him to Hawaii. Gives a FUNK, don't? You don't 261 00:20:33.559 --> 00:20:37.640 want to say on that plane, that's a long plane, right, but 262 00:20:37.720 --> 00:20:41.680 it's a vacation that I wouldn't have to pay for anything. Tell me, 263 00:20:41.759 --> 00:20:45.799 give you the cash. Well, I guess we're on the same page. 264 00:20:45.960 --> 00:20:52.839 We have different solutions. I ain't even get in the cash either. No, 265 00:20:52.440 --> 00:20:56.759 whatever, whatever, we suck. Clearly that's what it is. No, 266 00:20:56.920 --> 00:20:59.839 not even I'm just saying it's just weird of them to do this. 267 00:21:00.079 --> 00:21:02.960 Uh said, don't you think? And then you start coming out with all 268 00:21:03.039 --> 00:21:06.359 fucking excuses. Why? I'm not but no, no, I'm not making 269 00:21:06.440 --> 00:21:08.440 excuses. I'm trying to help you put it in perspective. But no, 270 00:21:08.680 --> 00:21:11.799 I get I get it, but isn't it weird? And you don't know 271 00:21:11.880 --> 00:21:17.559 these people either. So it's like it's a flex. And then it's a 272 00:21:17.640 --> 00:21:19.519 flex for my sister and her husband. Okay, here's what it is. 273 00:21:19.519 --> 00:21:22.319 It's flex for them to offer, flex for them to say, yeah, 274 00:21:22.440 --> 00:21:26.440 we accept the offer and we're gonna pay for the fly out there, to 275 00:21:26.519 --> 00:21:30.200 fucking say it, and the rent. And it's a flex for my parents 276 00:21:30.200 --> 00:21:33.880 to say, yeah, we can keep up with that too, even though 277 00:21:33.640 --> 00:21:41.799 safe from nineteen seventy fucking four and inflation is fucking sense, and we're gonna 278 00:21:41.839 --> 00:21:45.680 pay with with two thousand and twenty two prices, with nineteen seventy four money. 279 00:21:45.920 --> 00:21:48.920 Get it fucking straight, like these people don't know shit about money. 280 00:21:48.200 --> 00:21:53.640 anyways. Go on, can you please? Just we're both working on this, 281 00:21:53.799 --> 00:21:59.799 but just with the effort. I'll let it out to the major ones. 282 00:22:00.000 --> 00:22:04.880 If it's it's gratuitous, or I'll edit the gratuitous one. You know. 283 00:22:04.960 --> 00:22:11.839 The other thing that I think is that it's good. Yeah, it's 284 00:22:11.880 --> 00:22:15.119 good. It's good we're getting these out. I think it also takes shorter 285 00:22:15.160 --> 00:22:19.920 and shorter time to edit this stuff. But Um, yeah, it's like, 286 00:22:21.599 --> 00:22:26.920 okay, I guess I'll be a second class citizen because I'm doubly being 287 00:22:26.960 --> 00:22:30.920 punished. I don't have a significant donor, so I can't because they started 288 00:22:30.960 --> 00:22:34.839 inviting me again because I have a child and they want to have oh it 289 00:22:34.880 --> 00:22:40.880 would be great experience for her. I'm like what, what the but what 290 00:22:41.000 --> 00:22:48.519 I just realized right now is how we are complaining about something so like elitist 291 00:22:49.480 --> 00:22:55.880 that I feel guilty at this moment I don't get to go. I'm not 292 00:22:55.960 --> 00:23:00.880 complaining about that. I'm not complaining about a vacation. I'm complaining about the 293 00:23:00.960 --> 00:23:07.200 principle behind this. Isn't it weird? Not even a complaint. Isn't it 294 00:23:07.319 --> 00:23:12.240 weird? It's very weird. Yes, and it's not like, oh, 295 00:23:12.359 --> 00:23:18.920 big conspiracy weird. So isn't it weird? That's weird. Yeah, and 296 00:23:18.960 --> 00:23:22.160 then the fact that it's happened before for numerous but that's what I what threw 297 00:23:22.200 --> 00:23:25.160 me off. Yeah, but it's all for numerous different reasons. But and 298 00:23:25.240 --> 00:23:26.680 I don't care, I'm not do it. But the point is, I 299 00:23:26.759 --> 00:23:33.400 got the place myself's apart. You can invite no buddy. I have no 300 00:23:33.480 --> 00:23:37.079 friends. I don't have friends either. Hey, you know what? You 301 00:23:37.119 --> 00:23:41.119 know how hard it is to make friends after a certain age, because then 302 00:23:41.119 --> 00:23:48.039 it's like, uh, why, it's easy ever log yeah, you have 303 00:23:48.119 --> 00:23:52.359 a lot of friends after you just said you have no friends. Got It. 304 00:23:52.920 --> 00:23:56.319 I don't want them. Trust me. You've seen what it's out there. 305 00:23:56.720 --> 00:24:03.440 It's a night there, like what's that Zombie, Zombie show? UH, 306 00:24:03.559 --> 00:24:08.160 walking dead. What it's like out there? Bunch zombies trying to just 307 00:24:08.519 --> 00:24:14.240 stuck the life out of here. brainless, brainless people walking around your friend. 308 00:24:15.759 --> 00:24:18.640 Oh, what a tough place to be. People want to be your 309 00:24:18.680 --> 00:24:21.799 friend. Yeah, I don't. Do you want me friends? ZOMBIES? 310 00:24:21.839 --> 00:24:25.960 No, I already have a plan for zombies, and I've been trying to 311 00:24:26.160 --> 00:24:30.359 discuss this for a while now. But we you don't are you're not into 312 00:24:30.359 --> 00:24:33.440 the Zombie culture and already already here. That's why you don't understand. No, 313 00:24:33.599 --> 00:24:37.000 that's what I do understand, and that's why I have a plan in 314 00:24:37.079 --> 00:24:40.279 place. No, the zombies are are us. You don't know this. 315 00:24:40.440 --> 00:24:45.319 Look, everybody. Go outside, look around. Everybody's looking where, down 316 00:24:45.440 --> 00:24:48.799 on their phone, not even in front of them. Looks like Zombie land 317 00:24:48.839 --> 00:24:55.839 out there. That's the way. Are Eating each other for sustenance or whatever. 318 00:24:55.880 --> 00:24:57.759 How that word does a matter of time. It can't all happen at 319 00:24:57.759 --> 00:25:02.440 once. Fell you know that iphone didn't come as the first cell phone, 320 00:25:02.480 --> 00:25:04.519 but now we're all looking down at the phone, not even the computer. 321 00:25:04.759 --> 00:25:11.160 If the Wifi, and this is what it's just Wifi, goes, we're 322 00:25:11.240 --> 00:25:17.640 that this whole system, the whole world, is done. If WIFI seasons 323 00:25:17.680 --> 00:25:22.160 to exist, that's what the if somebody wants to attack our country. That's 324 00:25:22.160 --> 00:25:27.640 what they should do off the Wifi. That's why cyber security is a great 325 00:25:27.640 --> 00:25:34.160 field to be in. The probably get paid. Yeah, you pretty much 326 00:25:34.160 --> 00:25:41.599 set your own price. Thankfully it's they do have sanctions against cyber security and 327 00:25:41.920 --> 00:25:48.359 BIOS fucking yeah, warfare, but still not that anyone's gonna follow. That 328 00:25:48.880 --> 00:25:56.200 doesn't matter. You can it. Oh, sanctions, okay, I'm gonna 329 00:25:56.359 --> 00:26:02.519 do whatever I want. Still clearly. Well, I mean, you can't 330 00:26:02.599 --> 00:26:04.160 drop a mustard gas bomb get away with it. Let's put it down. 331 00:26:04.200 --> 00:26:07.279 Yeah, I mean, yeah, and that's why it's so hard and so 332 00:26:07.359 --> 00:26:11.519 much harder. But then, okay, so what would happen? But this 333 00:26:11.599 --> 00:26:17.480 is me really I don't know. If you drop a bomb, mustard bomb 334 00:26:17.599 --> 00:26:22.279 or whatever, and you get sanctioned, what happens to thet if somebody drops 335 00:26:22.279 --> 00:26:26.119 a mustard gas bomb or a luke or something like against that, nobody's getting 336 00:26:26.119 --> 00:26:32.000 sanctioned. It's World War three. Okay, so it's like retality, like 337 00:26:32.559 --> 00:26:37.240 everyone's final either panic or retaliation. Nobody's gonna sit there and say, Oh, 338 00:26:37.480 --> 00:26:41.359 I'm in trouble. Yeah, I less all this plays out. Let's 339 00:26:41.400 --> 00:26:47.119 call let's call him up for sent you think they're gonna answer that's floating that 340 00:26:47.240 --> 00:26:52.920 nuclear rocket and aiming. At that point it's like whoever's first? Yeah, 341 00:26:53.240 --> 00:26:57.039 no, but you're right. I think cyber stuff is the most scary. 342 00:26:57.720 --> 00:27:00.680 Saw a movie about it recently. I forget what it was, but cyber 343 00:27:02.119 --> 00:27:07.480 and then like if people can start like screwing with DNA and like make people 344 00:27:08.480 --> 00:27:15.960 that scaring, that's a scary thing. Ai, like I robot. That's 345 00:27:15.000 --> 00:27:21.720 a that could absolutely happen right now. And who knows that? Who knows 346 00:27:21.759 --> 00:27:26.359 it is? I mean like the Boston Dynamics, is it that have those 347 00:27:26.920 --> 00:27:33.680 crazy military dog looking yeah, but so me and my dad were talking about 348 00:27:33.680 --> 00:27:37.000 this the other day and and uh, he listens to NPR, but that 349 00:27:37.079 --> 00:27:40.559 was like one of the coolest things we were listening to at the same time 350 00:27:41.079 --> 00:27:44.599 and that's what they're saying. But then I was my dad's an engineer, 351 00:27:44.640 --> 00:27:48.880 so I'm like, well, can that actually happen? And he's like yes, 352 00:27:49.000 --> 00:27:52.640 but in order for it to be a reality, they would have to 353 00:27:52.720 --> 00:27:59.200 be like a panel of ethics or like a like a whole company that there 354 00:28:00.039 --> 00:28:04.119 would be able to have these stop buttons to like shut everything down. But 355 00:28:06.240 --> 00:28:08.359 who the hell knows what that's gonna look like, especially now, looking what 356 00:28:08.440 --> 00:28:11.200 the government looks like now. Is He's like, Oh, yeah, I'm 357 00:28:11.240 --> 00:28:17.079 cool, I'm fine, just kidding. All these robots are going to do 358 00:28:17.160 --> 00:28:21.039 all this stuff and I don't care. But I do think that could happen 359 00:28:21.759 --> 00:28:25.200 the I robot. I mean we're there now, youn't her father's right, 360 00:28:25.319 --> 00:28:27.400 like yeah, it's obviously gonna have just like a dirt bike as a kill 361 00:28:27.480 --> 00:28:32.559 switch of cars you break. Everything isn't going to have to have a security 362 00:28:32.839 --> 00:28:34.480 place and measure. But Hey, are you going to use it when times 363 00:28:34.519 --> 00:28:37.880 coming? Are you're gonna be near it when the Times come? Are you 364 00:28:37.920 --> 00:28:40.839 gonna be able to whos? Are you gonna want to, or are you 365 00:28:40.880 --> 00:28:44.519 gonna use it from Alice? Are you going paid to not to, not 366 00:28:44.680 --> 00:28:47.880 do it? Exactly? I think I go to feedes rate into this statement 367 00:28:47.920 --> 00:28:51.839 is I think until people stop acting on it self, interests in the world 368 00:28:51.880 --> 00:28:59.480 will not get better. And Yeah, there's yeah, because what's in other 369 00:28:59.559 --> 00:29:03.000 people's yeah, other people's lives, and that's if you give it, if 370 00:29:03.000 --> 00:29:07.400 you care. Otherwise, if you just want to win and get ahead and 371 00:29:07.440 --> 00:29:10.839 screw everything else, you know. Yeah, I mean that was the whole 372 00:29:11.400 --> 00:29:14.039 last couple of years and I'm not going to get into it because that's just 373 00:29:14.519 --> 00:29:18.400 that fairs me up. It's like, why didn't everybody come out with this 374 00:29:18.519 --> 00:29:22.759 information three years ago? But whatever, it's fake news. You know that. 375 00:29:26.200 --> 00:29:30.160 Um, yeah, fucking it's so weird. It's so weird. Okay, 376 00:29:30.200 --> 00:29:33.400 so what I want to say? It was like, yeah, like, 377 00:29:33.720 --> 00:29:37.359 so, personally, like thinking of all that ship puts me in a 378 00:29:37.440 --> 00:29:41.680 fucket. It puts me in as not depressed state, but like and not 379 00:29:41.799 --> 00:29:48.799 hopeless, but just not angry, not despair, but almost like half of 380 00:29:48.799 --> 00:29:53.119 those all rolled into one. You know. Yeah, I'm just frustrated that. 381 00:29:53.279 --> 00:29:56.680 Like it's like when is this going to get better? When's People's Moral 382 00:29:56.880 --> 00:30:02.720 Hump is gonna Reset? Yeah, the right direction and everyone's gonna you know, 383 00:30:03.000 --> 00:30:06.480 and these are such blanket statements that I get frostered and I get down 384 00:30:06.559 --> 00:30:12.640 and I get is that discouraged? It's all all of it. If I'm 385 00:30:12.640 --> 00:30:17.519 discouraged at it, there's a reason I'm discouraged and that reason probably makes me 386 00:30:17.599 --> 00:30:21.960 mad, you know, and right now it's like the self serving of people, 387 00:30:22.079 --> 00:30:26.319 you know. And so, anyways, when you get down or if 388 00:30:26.319 --> 00:30:27.960 I get down or if I get off track and stuff like that. So 389 00:30:29.359 --> 00:30:33.240 you're you have the music business, where you tell artists what to do, 390 00:30:33.400 --> 00:30:37.200 you know, and try to help them, um, market right and and 391 00:30:37.200 --> 00:30:41.119 and all that stuff. What. So if they get in a Rut, 392 00:30:41.119 --> 00:30:45.279 what do you tell them? Folks at home, a couple of a couple 393 00:30:45.319 --> 00:30:48.519 of things that have worked and a couple of things that have not worked. 394 00:30:48.920 --> 00:30:56.519 I walked through exactly where they started, what their thoughts were at that point 395 00:30:56.519 --> 00:31:00.839 where they thought they would be. Did they believe in themselves? Did they 396 00:31:00.880 --> 00:31:07.160 think it was impossible? And then I kind of go over with them what 397 00:31:07.319 --> 00:31:12.079 they've accomplished, but not just what they've accomplished, what hard work it took 398 00:31:12.160 --> 00:31:18.319 to get to that next point. And then I remind them also then this 399 00:31:18.440 --> 00:31:22.480 is like over a couple of days, I remind them every single reason why 400 00:31:22.480 --> 00:31:26.680 they told me that they wanted to be there, and then I connect that 401 00:31:26.799 --> 00:31:32.759 with, you know, how their life has changed to get to the endgame. 402 00:31:32.799 --> 00:31:34.960 So, for example, Um, Oh, I'm gonna be famous, 403 00:31:36.279 --> 00:31:37.680 is usually where it starts. Oh, I want to make money, and 404 00:31:37.720 --> 00:31:41.160 then when you start to get into it, you see things like, oh, 405 00:31:41.279 --> 00:31:44.720 I don't want to be associated with this. I don't want to be 406 00:31:44.799 --> 00:31:48.079 associated with that. I kind of want to do it based on like leaving 407 00:31:48.119 --> 00:31:53.160 a legacy for my family and doing it to sustain a career where I can 408 00:31:55.119 --> 00:31:59.119 uh, you know, just live off music, not be famous and being 409 00:31:59.160 --> 00:32:02.160 asshole all the time. So it's it's more or less, you know, 410 00:32:02.279 --> 00:32:10.519 connecting their new goals with how they're old goals have progressed over time, and 411 00:32:10.559 --> 00:32:16.920 it helps, because most people don't realize how far they've come because they're so 412 00:32:17.039 --> 00:32:23.960 focused on tomorrow. When and it sucks looking at yesterday because it feels like, 413 00:32:24.359 --> 00:32:30.519 you know, yesterday was was was like where you started. So it's 414 00:32:30.519 --> 00:32:32.119 like you shouldn't look at where you started because you only want to look to 415 00:32:32.160 --> 00:32:36.519 the future, like everyone's told like, Oh, eyes on the future, 416 00:32:36.599 --> 00:32:43.200 don't think about you could have done yet exactly. But you know, you 417 00:32:43.559 --> 00:32:50.200 need to look at it, but look at it from the point where like 418 00:32:50.559 --> 00:32:53.160 what the fun? Yeah, it's huge. It's like it's always a big 419 00:32:53.200 --> 00:32:57.920 deal. Like do you take a big picture perspective for them? That usually 420 00:32:57.920 --> 00:33:00.880 helps, usually because that's a good that's a good advice. I think. 421 00:33:00.279 --> 00:33:07.240 Yeah, a big picture and then like milestones, they might be small. 422 00:33:07.319 --> 00:33:10.119 They might seem small, but then I talked about everything they did to get 423 00:33:10.160 --> 00:33:15.799 there, you know, and one leads to another, even if it's tiny. 424 00:33:15.119 --> 00:33:17.279 That's why they say the first thing you should do is make your bed 425 00:33:17.319 --> 00:33:22.119 in the morning. You know, it's one task to get you and I 426 00:33:22.200 --> 00:33:27.839 do that and it like it may, it makes the day seem possible. 427 00:33:28.680 --> 00:33:30.799 At least it kicks it off in the current right direction. You completed the 428 00:33:30.880 --> 00:33:34.279 task. You're up one. But yeah, I think a lot of people, 429 00:33:34.319 --> 00:33:38.400 myself included, not even related to music, don't take a step back 430 00:33:38.440 --> 00:33:40.880 in the big pay like, for example, like and look at the big 431 00:33:40.920 --> 00:33:45.759 picture and compare how much progress you need. So that's a good that's a 432 00:33:45.799 --> 00:33:50.599 good way of doing that. UH, because even with my back recovery year, 433 00:33:50.799 --> 00:33:52.599 a year and two months ago, I couldn't walk at all. Now 434 00:33:52.799 --> 00:33:57.799 I can. I can walk, even though in pain every day and complaining. 435 00:33:58.079 --> 00:34:01.279 At least I'm not in a wheelchair. You know exactly. And I 436 00:34:01.400 --> 00:34:05.640 used to do. I used to do, but I now stay away from 437 00:34:05.839 --> 00:34:08.920 it. Could be worse, because it could always be worse for anybody. 438 00:34:09.039 --> 00:34:15.920 So that's not a motivation, you know. That's that's like saying relaxed at 439 00:34:15.920 --> 00:34:17.800 this point. Yeah, it's like it's not a big deal. It is 440 00:34:17.800 --> 00:34:21.599 a big deal if it is a big deal for that person. You know, 441 00:34:21.639 --> 00:34:23.440 I don't want to play all the things that you pet peeve. I'm 442 00:34:23.440 --> 00:34:30.599 going to write because you're an asshole in your mind. On my tombstone, 443 00:34:31.960 --> 00:34:37.239 I'm making a list up until now. But think about, think about what 444 00:34:37.280 --> 00:34:43.960 we we talked about in the last episode with Um, with your recovery from 445 00:34:44.039 --> 00:34:47.679 everything. People don't. That doesn't happen. People don't do that all the 446 00:34:47.719 --> 00:34:58.119 time. Most I don't know. I mean if anything in life, whatever 447 00:34:58.239 --> 00:35:05.079 happens. I feel like that's that is an accomplishment that regular any person, 448 00:35:05.199 --> 00:35:07.039 can't do. You know, I think. Okay, let me ask you 449 00:35:07.079 --> 00:35:13.480 this question, because of thinking is okay. Do you think it is? 450 00:35:13.760 --> 00:35:16.360 Do you think it works like this? Okay, I've accomplished that so far. 451 00:35:16.760 --> 00:35:19.880 You know, kicking that, that's hard to tell. You know, 452 00:35:20.039 --> 00:35:23.519 I'm I'm within the three percent that I've kicked it and then the point zero, 453 00:35:23.599 --> 00:35:27.679 zero five that have kept with kicking it right. Yeah, it's so 454 00:35:27.719 --> 00:35:30.079 bad, but but thankful. Yeah, okay, we'll pass that. But 455 00:35:30.559 --> 00:35:37.079 been a professional weake boarder, which is you know, very weird to do, 456 00:35:37.199 --> 00:35:39.480 but it's not a common thing. So do you think like somebody's, 457 00:35:39.920 --> 00:35:45.559 I don't know, so called, quote unquote, success could be behind them 458 00:35:45.559 --> 00:35:51.280 at that point, or do you think it's just up to work? I 459 00:35:51.320 --> 00:36:00.159 think successes is uh, is, undefined and UH UH and in it. 460 00:36:00.119 --> 00:36:04.639 Yeah, so it's about putting in the work. It's not like everyone has 461 00:36:04.679 --> 00:36:07.320 a certain amount of like, oh, that was your shot, you blew 462 00:36:07.320 --> 00:36:08.679 it, because I think a lot of people want to get out of that 463 00:36:08.760 --> 00:36:14.360 mindset. Oh my God, yeah, my success defined when I was twenty. 464 00:36:14.559 --> 00:36:22.079 My success was marriage, graduation, master's degree, child make over, 465 00:36:22.199 --> 00:36:25.920 fifty grand before the age of thirty. That was killed it. I killed 466 00:36:25.960 --> 00:36:30.119 it, but now I look back, I see that as yeah, I 467 00:36:30.239 --> 00:36:35.840 kind of see that as okay, I did that, but that is not 468 00:36:36.199 --> 00:36:42.719 it did not. It did not from then on, right what, you're 469 00:36:42.719 --> 00:36:45.159 just gonna make a goal from the like. Once you reach your goal, 470 00:36:45.199 --> 00:36:46.400 you're gonna make a new one and then if you don't, then, yeah, 471 00:36:46.440 --> 00:36:50.639 things get depressing. It was a goal, but then it ended up, 472 00:36:50.840 --> 00:36:54.800 in my mind, being a terrible way to spend my life, thinking 473 00:36:54.840 --> 00:36:59.599 that that's the end goal and even looking back now, and I told her 474 00:36:59.599 --> 00:37:01.639 to, might add, and my dad's really good, because I was like 475 00:37:01.800 --> 00:37:07.320 man, I really wasted like the best thing I got out of it, 476 00:37:07.360 --> 00:37:09.920 and you know it's amazing, of course, is my daughter. But I 477 00:37:10.000 --> 00:37:14.920 have been struggling, especially now that I had I lost my job for a 478 00:37:15.039 --> 00:37:17.719 year. I'm struggling with the fact that, wow, those ten years that 479 00:37:17.760 --> 00:37:22.280 I was focusing so much on those things, I wasn't thinking about anything else. 480 00:37:22.559 --> 00:37:24.880 Is this good for me? Is this good for me? I don't 481 00:37:24.880 --> 00:37:29.760 know. That's all. I focused on the end goal and that was not. 482 00:37:31.000 --> 00:37:35.880 Now, looking back, that was that is not a definition of success 483 00:37:36.199 --> 00:37:42.639 at all. For other people it is. And but what's working like a 484 00:37:42.719 --> 00:37:46.119 means to an end. Yeah, like I thought that was the ultimate happiness. 485 00:37:46.159 --> 00:37:49.960 I was like, I fucking did it. I'm fifth, I am 486 00:37:49.960 --> 00:37:53.599 thirty, I did it all off boxes at that point. Yeah, it 487 00:37:53.639 --> 00:37:58.239 was checking off boxes, but I that was what you know, that's what 488 00:37:58.280 --> 00:38:05.400 I thought success was, checking off boxes. But yeah, but it makes 489 00:38:05.440 --> 00:38:09.239 me feel better for not having any of those things. Yeah, I mean, 490 00:38:09.320 --> 00:38:13.800 and that's the other thing, like I honestly think I should have put 491 00:38:13.880 --> 00:38:15.320 way more. I got, like I said, I got married at twenty 492 00:38:15.360 --> 00:38:20.920 three. I mean that to me, all right, looking back after one 493 00:38:21.000 --> 00:38:27.000 year of dating, like, okay, like that's the kind of decisions that 494 00:38:27.079 --> 00:38:31.079 I was like success. Yeah, that face is exactly what I'm talking to 495 00:38:31.079 --> 00:38:37.000 you. You're married to a pretty persuasive human being. Okay. So here's 496 00:38:37.000 --> 00:38:45.400 another thing I realized through my ten fifteen years of therapy is that is that 497 00:38:45.719 --> 00:38:52.519 it's for me. It was the challenge of, um, fighting off other 498 00:38:52.039 --> 00:39:00.079 females to be the ultimate uh, you know, the box of success has 499 00:39:00.119 --> 00:39:05.920 been checked off because, you know, as you can remember, maybe there 500 00:39:06.000 --> 00:39:12.800 was a couple. There's people here and there that I literally Um, okay, 501 00:39:12.800 --> 00:39:16.000 this you know this girl. I'm going to change her name. Um, 502 00:39:16.039 --> 00:39:22.719 it was during Halloween when UH and just put us out. That's true. 503 00:39:22.800 --> 00:39:24.400 Well, her name is Lauren. Actually doesn't matter. It's not like 504 00:39:24.440 --> 00:39:30.320 she'll ever hear this. Uh. It was at the same time where it 505 00:39:30.400 --> 00:39:36.679 was like around the same time we met Lauren and and he went to the 506 00:39:36.760 --> 00:39:40.280 Halloween Party together, the University Halloween Party together, and I went with my 507 00:39:40.360 --> 00:39:47.360 friends and we came back and, Um, we came home first and I 508 00:39:47.440 --> 00:39:53.320 was watching out the door to see if they were going to come back and 509 00:39:53.599 --> 00:39:58.320 I saw them come back or I didn't see the come back. It was 510 00:39:58.360 --> 00:40:01.159 taking too long. I knocked on the door and either you or brad answered, 511 00:40:01.800 --> 00:40:05.840 and I've been over so many times at that point that it wasn't you 512 00:40:05.840 --> 00:40:08.119 know, it was normal. And I was like Hey, can I wait 513 00:40:08.159 --> 00:40:10.400 and you know in the room. IS HE gonna be home soon? They're 514 00:40:10.400 --> 00:40:15.000 like yeah, sure, and so when I get when they come back, 515 00:40:16.000 --> 00:40:22.599 um, her stuff was in his room and she had been drinking and he 516 00:40:22.679 --> 00:40:23.840 was like, oh no, she's just, you know, just she was 517 00:40:23.880 --> 00:40:28.719 just gonna stay here because of how much she's been drinking, and I was 518 00:40:28.719 --> 00:40:30.639 sitting on the bed and I was like, well, I'm not moving. 519 00:40:30.679 --> 00:40:34.760 So if she wants to stay here, she can. She can go on 520 00:40:34.800 --> 00:40:37.719 the couch, but I'm gonna be staying here, right on this bed. 521 00:40:37.760 --> 00:40:42.000 So y'all make this decision, but I'm not going anywhere. Wait, wait, 522 00:40:42.079 --> 00:40:51.559 so Laura, L M HMM, for L els stuff was on Jay's 523 00:40:51.760 --> 00:40:57.800 floor. Yeah, and he said, was he in the room? Yeah, 524 00:40:58.199 --> 00:41:00.599 and she was in the room. Yeah. Why were you looking out 525 00:41:00.760 --> 00:41:05.360 the wind the door? Because I was it was taking too long. I 526 00:41:05.400 --> 00:41:07.039 was waiting for them to come back. It was taking too long. So 527 00:41:07.119 --> 00:41:10.400 that's when I knocked on your guys door and I was like hey, can 528 00:41:10.440 --> 00:41:15.360 I say so? I just went his room, sat on and when they 529 00:41:15.400 --> 00:41:17.480 came back, she ended up going home. Oh, they weren't there yet. 530 00:41:17.519 --> 00:41:21.039 They weren't there yet. They weren't there yet, but I waited until 531 00:41:21.079 --> 00:41:23.960 they came home. I thought you walked in on them. Oh No, 532 00:41:25.119 --> 00:41:31.800 wow, did you know there hooked up? Nope, I don't know for 533 00:41:31.880 --> 00:41:37.800 sure, but what's your hunch? Well, actually, my roommates told me 534 00:41:37.880 --> 00:41:43.960 that that they were making out at that party, which this was. This 535 00:41:44.000 --> 00:41:51.599 was a university swansord party at one of those like whack not clubs in the 536 00:41:51.639 --> 00:41:55.599 area. I got kicked out because I I stole. I stole the beer 537 00:41:55.760 --> 00:42:00.360 from the the tubs that they had, like the ice tubs. I kicked 538 00:42:00.360 --> 00:42:06.199 out for putting our wristband on and it wasn't I wasn't twenty one. I 539 00:42:06.199 --> 00:42:07.760 think it was the same one. Yeah, I got kicked because I wasn't 540 00:42:07.760 --> 00:42:14.480 twenty one either. I got kicked out because I was too drunk. Yeah, 541 00:42:15.159 --> 00:42:17.199 they're like you gotta go, you gotta go, and we that's why 542 00:42:17.280 --> 00:42:22.000 it was early, because we got kicked out early. Yeah, yeah, 543 00:42:22.079 --> 00:42:24.519 that guy picked me up and three, he hated me because I taped the 544 00:42:24.559 --> 00:42:29.559 wristband, J ripped off the wristband off of him and gave it to when 545 00:42:29.559 --> 00:42:34.480 he left any any or he got another one and I put the ends together 546 00:42:34.599 --> 00:42:37.199 with candle wax. I was sitting at the table with the yeah, and 547 00:42:37.239 --> 00:42:42.079 I got the candle wax trying to put it together on such it works, 548 00:42:42.119 --> 00:42:45.960 so we could buy what? So we can buy it. Three dollar are 549 00:42:46.000 --> 00:42:52.079 pouring the shots down my mouth. What's that called? Uh, I forget 550 00:42:52.079 --> 00:42:57.800 what it's called. Old, yeah, yeah, when, yeah, and 551 00:42:57.840 --> 00:43:00.800 then you're like it's like this whole thing. Yeah, but yeah, she 552 00:43:00.920 --> 00:43:04.360 was like half naked porn on my throat. That's when I got caught. 553 00:43:06.400 --> 00:43:08.679 But I got a good sex with them and I was happy I got so 554 00:43:09.119 --> 00:43:12.480 I was so waste so that I thought, Oh, I was so slick. 555 00:43:12.559 --> 00:43:15.320 Nobody saw me tank a beer from from the ice thing and then like 556 00:43:15.440 --> 00:43:21.280 five minutes later they're like, wait, was that downtown Fort Myers? Was 557 00:43:21.320 --> 00:43:27.000 that place? It's the I think. Actually, you know the place. 558 00:43:27.840 --> 00:43:30.719 No, it wasn't the beach, it was the downtown one. They eventually 559 00:43:30.719 --> 00:43:35.760 had shootings there. Um Downtown, downtown, downtown, downtown, downtown. 560 00:43:35.400 --> 00:43:39.039 I can't remember four Myers, barely. Yeah, the beach one was a 561 00:43:39.079 --> 00:43:44.840 whole different. But yeah, so I was like a little and then I 562 00:43:44.880 --> 00:43:51.719 was dressed like a wall. Yeah, yes, and what's her face was? 563 00:43:51.840 --> 00:43:58.360 As a pirate? I forget what I was. Probably some hookers looking 564 00:43:59.280 --> 00:44:05.639 whatever. That's everybody in college. Uh. But yeah, I know for 565 00:44:05.800 --> 00:44:08.199 things exactly like this. I haven't been thrown out at the club. They 566 00:44:08.280 --> 00:44:15.440 think, how old are you? Forty? F No, we should do 567 00:44:15.599 --> 00:44:22.119 we should do an episode where we should go to the club. Alright, 568 00:44:22.519 --> 00:44:25.199 one of us, because both of us trying to talk over and the club 569 00:44:25.239 --> 00:44:30.480 would be so annoying. Talking to the clubs impossible. One person goes and 570 00:44:30.639 --> 00:44:36.440 just like yeah, talking about together. We're feeling young. I don't care 571 00:44:36.679 --> 00:44:39.239 if it's documented or not. I need to feel young, all right, 572 00:44:39.280 --> 00:44:43.039 and that I would probably need to go there. I will make it to 573 00:44:43.119 --> 00:44:47.000 Florida. Uh, so we could do alive. You come in here. 574 00:44:47.000 --> 00:44:52.039 Would just be all sorts of drama. And Steph is in Florida now. 575 00:44:52.119 --> 00:44:55.039 So I had more than one reason to cool there on the other close, 576 00:44:55.159 --> 00:45:02.239 but did um, yeah, I know that's nothing now did. I'm trying 577 00:45:02.239 --> 00:45:08.719 to think. I don't know. I feel like an asshole sometimes because I'm 578 00:45:08.800 --> 00:45:13.480 not, as I am not a very good friend, of keeping up with 579 00:45:13.519 --> 00:45:17.119 people and, you know, making it a priority, like staff, especially, 580 00:45:17.679 --> 00:45:22.119 yeah, for the people that matter that I actually, yeah, you 581 00:45:22.199 --> 00:45:25.159 know, care about, which is like five people, because at the rest 582 00:45:25.199 --> 00:45:29.239 of the time I feel like, okay, well, I could be slaving 583 00:45:29.239 --> 00:45:34.000 money by not going out, saving time by doing things I want to do, 584 00:45:34.440 --> 00:45:37.639 because on my free time, without when I don't have, you know, 585 00:45:37.679 --> 00:45:43.559 my child for that weekend, that is like the best forty eight hours 586 00:45:43.599 --> 00:45:46.280 of the month. I could sleep in, I could, you know, 587 00:45:46.599 --> 00:45:52.039 eat popcorn for dinner, like, I can watch stranger things really loud up 588 00:45:52.079 --> 00:45:57.880 until so I that's what I like to do on those dates. So if, 589 00:45:58.559 --> 00:46:04.119 if people, unless you're extremely worth the time, which of course that 590 00:46:04.320 --> 00:46:08.000 would you would be, then I'm not going to find I'm not doing anything. 591 00:46:09.280 --> 00:46:13.000 First of all, let me say thank you. I appreciate that. 592 00:46:13.039 --> 00:46:15.400 I'm worth the time, and so are you. Yeah, I know. 593 00:46:15.679 --> 00:46:19.960 No, yeah, I think my free time is precious and I have plenty 594 00:46:20.000 --> 00:46:22.719 of it. I can imagine yours, you know. Yeah, I'm like, 595 00:46:22.760 --> 00:46:25.159 I get it. At Six am and I don't even have to normally. 596 00:46:25.760 --> 00:46:30.079 I wouldn't have to otherwise, and I'm like, you know, it's 597 00:46:30.159 --> 00:46:34.960 normal stuff. But I'm like our time, go to the bath room, 598 00:46:35.039 --> 00:46:40.519 do your homework, but I don't otherwise. But yeah, the hardest job 599 00:46:40.599 --> 00:46:45.679 ever actually is a single mother. I think that's tough. I do it 600 00:46:45.239 --> 00:46:52.760 with pride and I do it right. So very proud of that. Yeah, 601 00:46:52.880 --> 00:47:00.239 but yeah, uh, it makes these forty eight hours of that unch 602 00:47:00.840 --> 00:47:09.280 more beautiful. Well, it makes those literally heaven. I could ice cream 603 00:47:09.320 --> 00:47:14.280 without anybody being like oh, like stuff like that. It's so simple. 604 00:47:14.480 --> 00:47:16.559 But so, the next time down, I want you to make a list 605 00:47:16.559 --> 00:47:20.639 of all the things you can do for those forty hours. You'll automatically look. 606 00:47:20.679 --> 00:47:23.760 You're already smiling. So I know. I'm like this is I got 607 00:47:23.760 --> 00:47:29.280 because I have Sunday. I have all day Sunday and uh, because Monday 608 00:47:29.280 --> 00:47:31.199 I have to work. She comes back on Tuesday. But so Monday doesn't 609 00:47:31.199 --> 00:47:42.159 county. Okay, okay, uh, but yeah, so I don't know. 610 00:47:42.280 --> 00:47:47.480 I don't I know you're feeling. Do you think you're feeling like down, 611 00:47:47.559 --> 00:47:52.239 like depressed style, or is it just like things are weird this week 612 00:47:52.320 --> 00:47:59.639 because of the your parents and that whole situation. That question was just for 613 00:48:00.079 --> 00:48:05.840 Um, the people at home, yes, but for me this week it's 614 00:48:05.880 --> 00:48:08.480 just been everything has just been it's like if I had a period, it 615 00:48:08.519 --> 00:48:14.760 would be like I'm my period or P M mass, whatever makes you moody. 616 00:48:14.920 --> 00:48:21.079 Like everything pisses me off. I don't know. Okay, maybe it's 617 00:48:21.079 --> 00:48:24.559 a full moon this week too, I think, because the people I've talked 618 00:48:24.559 --> 00:48:30.000 to this week it wasn't there week either like something went wrong or something aggravating 619 00:48:30.039 --> 00:48:34.440 them or you know, you know work, everything that could go wrong is 620 00:48:34.480 --> 00:48:37.239 going wrong. But it's nothing that's not sexible, it's nothing life ending and 621 00:48:37.239 --> 00:48:42.679 it's all laughable. But it's just so really, I don't have any issues. 622 00:48:42.880 --> 00:48:45.480 I was just saying in general for your artists, like if they're in 623 00:48:45.519 --> 00:48:49.559 a Rut, which I've seen a lot of artists be like that, and 624 00:48:49.719 --> 00:48:53.480 people you know what's what's your first thing that you that you try to get 625 00:48:53.519 --> 00:48:57.719 them out of it, you know, and that's something that has devices taking 626 00:48:57.760 --> 00:49:02.039 a step back, because so people do that. Yeah, because it's hard 627 00:49:02.199 --> 00:49:06.519 for anybody. It's hard for me. I need to take my own advice 628 00:49:06.519 --> 00:49:10.239 and sometimes I don't like. Yeah, like, especially right now. I 629 00:49:10.280 --> 00:49:19.920 went from thinking that I had everything perfect to losing everything, and everything happened 630 00:49:19.960 --> 00:49:24.519 within a couple of years. So the divorce happened and then I, Um, 631 00:49:24.800 --> 00:49:29.599 uh, well, pass for a little bit. COVID UH lost. 632 00:49:30.639 --> 00:49:35.639 They cut our salary because of COVID. Then I messed up my knee. 633 00:49:35.639 --> 00:49:39.159 I couldn't walk for like a year until I got that fixed, and then 634 00:49:40.519 --> 00:49:45.599 I couldn't afford my apartment anymore because of Covid, so I had him move 635 00:49:45.719 --> 00:49:50.480 in with my parents. And so at that point I was like, I 636 00:49:50.519 --> 00:49:55.079 am a loser, you know, even to myself. So, Um, 637 00:49:55.119 --> 00:50:00.079 that took a while because I didn't really have it was covid, so is 638 00:50:00.119 --> 00:50:06.199 weird already, but it was paying it. It was the fact that it's 639 00:50:06.239 --> 00:50:15.320 so expensive to have to buy a house and also, especially for Hispanic families 640 00:50:15.840 --> 00:50:22.159 and in general, it's becoming more common to have a multi generational household. 641 00:50:22.639 --> 00:50:24.400 My grandma lives here, she used to, I mean before she died. 642 00:50:24.679 --> 00:50:29.480 My parents lived here, all my siblings lived here before they went to college. 643 00:50:30.039 --> 00:50:32.320 Um, so it was a great environment for my daughter to grow up 644 00:50:32.360 --> 00:50:36.719 in because she got to know the family that otherwise she might not have if 645 00:50:36.719 --> 00:50:39.119 we were living on her own. So there's that. And then it's like 646 00:50:39.719 --> 00:50:44.239 by living here and she gets to go to a really good school which, 647 00:50:44.360 --> 00:50:46.480 if I lived on my own, probably wouldn't be as good of a school 648 00:50:46.599 --> 00:50:52.880 just because of the price of the houses are in a different area. And 649 00:50:52.920 --> 00:50:57.599 then, Um, and then finally, like they loved taking care of her, 650 00:50:57.639 --> 00:51:00.760 they love doing stuff with her, and you know, so, I 651 00:51:00.800 --> 00:51:04.800 think. I mean, I love the situation I'm in now. I just 652 00:51:04.840 --> 00:51:10.079 got it positives here. Ye See, like it took probably two years to 653 00:51:10.119 --> 00:51:13.719 get out of the fact that I'm like, okay, I have nothing. 654 00:51:14.360 --> 00:51:16.159 I'm like I'm the worst I have. The one thing I have is that 655 00:51:16.239 --> 00:51:22.239 I'm gonna I'm a good what you were doing was resetting. Yeah, white 656 00:51:22.239 --> 00:51:25.920 many sleep clean. You don't have writing there anymore, but that writing was 657 00:51:25.960 --> 00:51:30.800 shitty anyway. So you're gonna write a good story this time. Exactly. 658 00:51:31.000 --> 00:51:35.960 That's why my book is going to be about. Gonna be about this guy 659 00:51:36.039 --> 00:51:39.960 that you used to know like back in the day, and uh, his 660 00:51:40.079 --> 00:51:47.000 name is wilber. He was a skateboarder and stuff like that, and uh, 661 00:51:47.400 --> 00:51:51.639 you love Wilbur. What was a little rough of a name. We 662 00:51:51.719 --> 00:51:59.119 might have just change his name or something, but the name every okay, 663 00:52:00.079 --> 00:52:04.480 Um, yeah, okay, okay, yeah, so, okay. So 664 00:52:04.599 --> 00:52:07.719 tell me about that about you. What do you think about you right now? 665 00:52:07.440 --> 00:52:12.800 Well, what was the question? What is your definite how has your 666 00:52:12.840 --> 00:52:21.599 definition of success evolved from when we all left college? What did you want 667 00:52:22.000 --> 00:52:24.840 to have? Money. So, when you left college, the goal was 668 00:52:24.920 --> 00:52:32.679 money, Girl and money. I don't want to say that allowed grills. 669 00:52:34.440 --> 00:52:42.559 Yeah, yeah, because we're talking about and reality. What was the question? 670 00:52:42.679 --> 00:52:45.519 Success then, when I was younger, now that I have experience in 671 00:52:45.519 --> 00:52:49.639 the world? Okay, so very simply, success when I was younger was 672 00:52:50.480 --> 00:52:52.800 H if I had a lot of money, I would be successful, right, 673 00:52:53.079 --> 00:52:57.719 which that's a version of success. But at this point in my life, 674 00:52:57.960 --> 00:53:02.320 or knowing what I know, is if you're happy, you're successful because 675 00:53:02.519 --> 00:53:08.440 ultimately you want money to buy ship that makes you happy or that you think 676 00:53:08.480 --> 00:53:14.719 will make you happy. Um, but all that's temporary and money, just 677 00:53:14.800 --> 00:53:19.400 like money is and happiness isn't, if you have it as a mindset. 678 00:53:20.000 --> 00:53:23.800 Yeah, so to see that the beautiful life. So what would make me 679 00:53:23.840 --> 00:53:29.880 happy now? To go into uh, to take that one step further. 680 00:53:30.440 --> 00:53:35.719 I mean, I guess I don't know, because I've never like, Um, 681 00:53:35.880 --> 00:53:38.519 well, I guess I've been truly happy. But, uh, I 682 00:53:38.559 --> 00:53:44.039 don't know, because I've been so all over the place recently. But but 683 00:53:44.159 --> 00:53:47.559 obviously having but by being happy with yourself, with what you do for a 684 00:53:47.639 --> 00:53:53.000 living, finding purpose in that, as well as having a purpose getting up 685 00:53:53.039 --> 00:54:00.280 every morning. So just taking care of yourself physically, mentally and also, 686 00:54:00.360 --> 00:54:06.360 I think it's big for me. It's gonna be big too, because I 687 00:54:06.400 --> 00:54:12.719 really don't think I care about myself that much, like meaning, trying not 688 00:54:12.760 --> 00:54:15.000 to put it badly, meaning, like, okay, I do things that 689 00:54:15.039 --> 00:54:19.880 are bad for my body, like okay, I smoke and you know, 690 00:54:20.039 --> 00:54:23.800 when we were in college we party, like things that weren't in the best 691 00:54:23.840 --> 00:54:30.679 interest of my temple called the body. Right, so that that's like a 692 00:54:30.000 --> 00:54:35.559 version of self hatred, so I think. And it's still do those things 693 00:54:35.679 --> 00:54:39.239 right and still smoke, still don't really wash my diet, you know, 694 00:54:39.320 --> 00:54:44.199 and I exercise good but I don't have the Diet or anything to else to 695 00:54:44.239 --> 00:54:46.679 balance it out as well as I could. So what is that? That 696 00:54:46.840 --> 00:54:50.400 is me not caring. I don't know why I don't care. I don't 697 00:54:50.400 --> 00:54:52.800 even want to go down that road. Doesn't really matter. But I think 698 00:54:52.840 --> 00:54:59.760 I get the most happiness if and when I help other people and that to 699 00:54:59.840 --> 00:55:02.480 be happy, you know what I'm saying, and that gives me more joy 700 00:55:02.519 --> 00:55:08.519 than making myself happy. So, Um, whether it be Um, you 701 00:55:08.559 --> 00:55:13.559 know, if I volunteered at a dog shelter or an animal shelter, and 702 00:55:13.679 --> 00:55:19.800 I like that because I love animals, or if I help somebody that was 703 00:55:19.880 --> 00:55:24.800 struggling with something that I have experienced in and it helps them, or just 704 00:55:24.840 --> 00:55:29.440 have a conversation to get someone out of their head and they laugh at a 705 00:55:29.480 --> 00:55:35.880 stupid joke I tell that makes me and measure will be more happy than making 706 00:55:35.920 --> 00:55:42.039 my spying myself something. Now you know, I don't know and you yeah, 707 00:55:42.079 --> 00:55:45.960 so I don't know. I gotta figure out how to incorporate that in 708 00:55:45.079 --> 00:55:49.400 my life because I know that's what makes me happy. But that was an 709 00:55:49.480 --> 00:55:52.800 short answer. Is before I thought it was money and material and now I 710 00:55:52.840 --> 00:55:59.280 know it's people and connections. But yeah, I mean, and that's I 711 00:55:59.280 --> 00:56:01.159 feel like a lot of people, I don't see. That's the other thing. 712 00:56:01.199 --> 00:56:06.559 I don't know if people have that for real or do they think they 713 00:56:06.599 --> 00:56:15.280 have that or overcompensating or lying to people or themselves? Because maybe it's me, 714 00:56:15.360 --> 00:56:21.239 but I find it really hard to think that people really do have every 715 00:56:21.239 --> 00:56:25.880 everything with no flaws, like their mental health is and everybody's got their flaws, 716 00:56:27.000 --> 00:56:30.559 right, I mean, and that's the other thing that makes it hard, 717 00:56:30.639 --> 00:56:37.119 because social media everybody's good things and fake good life. Yeah, the 718 00:56:37.239 --> 00:56:38.719 bad things too, if you do, if they mess up once, like 719 00:56:38.760 --> 00:56:44.519 a celebrity, they they're caught, whereas before they weren't. So it's hard 720 00:56:44.559 --> 00:56:47.119 to go out to the radar. Now you're more vulnerable your private life as 721 00:56:47.119 --> 00:56:51.119 a celebrity, and that's why we see all these scandals. Now it's not 722 00:56:51.199 --> 00:56:55.679 like, Oh, now they're corrupt, they've always been corrupt. Yeah, 723 00:56:55.880 --> 00:57:00.760 I don't know, but the good comes bad with every thing. You're balanced 724 00:57:00.760 --> 00:57:07.360 with everything. You know. Yeah, it's it's the world's very tempting, 725 00:57:07.559 --> 00:57:13.199 tempting place with with with the temptations of evil, you know, things that 726 00:57:13.280 --> 00:57:16.039 make you weak. So scact, we can take your soul for that second 727 00:57:16.440 --> 00:57:22.679 whatever. I don't know, but I haven't read the Scriptures, but I 728 00:57:22.679 --> 00:57:27.880 can tell you that, uh, nothing out there is really good for you. 729 00:57:27.960 --> 00:57:31.079 That makes you happy, is really good for you, exercise, and 730 00:57:31.239 --> 00:57:37.320 even then you're gonna make sure you have a good diet of gramatic genetically modified 731 00:57:37.360 --> 00:57:43.920 food and ship and sugar to sustain that. You know, how can you 732 00:57:43.960 --> 00:57:46.440 win in this ship life unless you're in like the one percent of the one 733 00:57:46.480 --> 00:57:51.840 percent. You're you're and they're Inde some evil ships. So right here, 734 00:57:52.559 --> 00:57:55.559 who knows? I just focus on me. I don't care. I don't 735 00:57:55.559 --> 00:57:59.559 care about the news, I don't care about nothing. Yeah, that's my 736 00:57:59.679 --> 00:58:01.840 problem, the news. Yeah, why do you care about things? Because 737 00:58:01.880 --> 00:58:07.599 it's like, because, dude, they're fucking facts. Tunes every four seconds. 738 00:58:07.239 --> 00:58:12.800 Here's one that really and I'm about to write, I'm about to unleash, 739 00:58:12.880 --> 00:58:15.159 and that's where I give up. I don't care. I don't know 740 00:58:15.159 --> 00:58:19.679 anybody. Yeah, I don't even like anybody in America. Okay, I 741 00:58:19.719 --> 00:58:22.599 mean, it's going to really take a lot for me to go overseas with 742 00:58:22.639 --> 00:58:30.079 my likeness. You know. You know what we legit need to be worrying 743 00:58:30.119 --> 00:58:36.719 about, and I'm not joking about this, is whatever the hell is happening 744 00:58:37.000 --> 00:58:43.079 with Um not ufos, whatever the whatever they're called. Now there's things in 745 00:58:43.119 --> 00:58:52.719 the air and there's like government, confirmed government, maybe whatever that there's ship 746 00:58:52.800 --> 00:58:59.400 in the in the United States that's kind of related to ufos that are mean 747 00:58:59.719 --> 00:59:04.119 send messages. It's so real. Yeah, they said that, but they're 748 00:59:04.159 --> 00:59:07.519 just sweeping it under the road. But I'm not surprised. Listen, I 749 00:59:07.880 --> 00:59:10.519 had an alien experience one time. What was that thing you posted? What 750 00:59:10.559 --> 00:59:19.960 was that? That was actually Um I learned later that was umsel posted. 751 00:59:20.119 --> 00:59:27.320 So it was space aft rocket. I don't know, but there's so many 752 00:59:27.480 --> 00:59:30.840 and like and makes sense. The trail. Yeah, they're breaking the trail, 753 00:59:31.119 --> 00:59:37.480 I think. I think Elon Must I think he he obviously knows and 754 00:59:37.519 --> 00:59:42.159 I got him in the act. Yeah, I mean emprised that that foot 755 00:59:42.239 --> 00:59:45.400 is just wiped from my phone, though. I should check on that. 756 00:59:45.960 --> 00:59:51.440 Mr Musk must be. Yeah, no, it's definitely Alice. I when 757 00:59:51.440 --> 00:59:53.079 I was little, I had I saw aliens at my house. It was 758 00:59:53.119 --> 00:59:57.000 the craziest thing in my life, literally, like when I woke up. 759 00:59:57.320 --> 00:59:59.440 Well, I'M NOT gonna type A full story. We'll save it for a 760 00:59:59.440 --> 01:00:04.320 different one, but alien should be a whole. Yeah, happened a couple 761 01:00:04.320 --> 01:00:07.639 of times because where I come from is crazy. But Um, all right, 762 01:00:07.679 --> 01:00:10.800 look up one time and we were on bed bunks right our house in 763 01:00:10.840 --> 01:00:15.920 New Hampshire, my sister, and then if we had any friends up, 764 01:00:15.960 --> 01:00:19.480 we'd all put a bunch of mattresses down in there. And so the floor 765 01:00:19.519 --> 01:00:22.199 of we all mattresses and then a bunk bed Nicole's. Yeah, it's the 766 01:00:22.199 --> 01:00:25.320 best. And then so I'm and I was young and I get out. 767 01:00:27.039 --> 01:00:30.559 I was on the top Bunk and I had to pee and I jumped down 768 01:00:30.639 --> 01:00:34.519 and and and there's all mattresses on the ground and you can't step anywhere. 769 01:00:34.800 --> 01:00:38.880 And I look down once I jumped down and I looked trying to find the 770 01:00:38.920 --> 01:00:44.960 door and all of a sudden there's about seven, six or seven short, 771 01:00:45.199 --> 01:00:50.400 chubby looked like Buddha, looking like blue men. Right, no, not 772 01:00:50.599 --> 01:00:53.960 threatening whatsoever. And I'm staying and like they're all over that. There's not 773 01:00:54.079 --> 01:00:57.679 space for them, right. So, but I'm so I just shake it 774 01:00:57.719 --> 01:01:00.400 off and I look again. I thought of my eye and they're still there 775 01:01:00.719 --> 01:01:06.079 and they're talking amongst each other and like and like, I went to touch 776 01:01:06.199 --> 01:01:12.320 one and right when I touched him he did not move. So I didn't 777 01:01:12.360 --> 01:01:15.199 touch him. So I just I said, I went to the bathroom yeah, 778 01:01:15.280 --> 01:01:22.039 yeah, still there. WHOA thing? I went up my ladder. 779 01:01:22.440 --> 01:01:27.239 Yeah, and then woke up. They weren't there. But how that was 780 01:01:27.280 --> 01:01:30.000 weird. So I've known. I've known about those aliens. Well, you 781 01:01:30.000 --> 01:01:37.000 could have just asked me. I was a denyer until I forget. I 782 01:01:37.039 --> 01:01:40.880 forget what happened, but I started watching the when that that one dude. 783 01:01:42.119 --> 01:01:45.639 Well, first of all I loved link one a D two. So when 784 01:01:45.679 --> 01:01:50.119 Tom Delong started going nuts, I had to like, I don't even know, 785 01:01:50.199 --> 01:01:55.840 but yeah, but yeah, back, Yo, Yo, Yo. 786 01:01:58.679 --> 01:02:02.880 My parents, that our town parents are out of town. Yeah, they 787 01:02:02.880 --> 01:02:09.199 have a ring camera that they just put in kids. I know. Well, 788 01:02:09.239 --> 01:02:14.039 I feel so bad because my dad, all the kids, my dad 789 01:02:14.079 --> 01:02:17.840 has this house right. There's two master bedrooms, there's four bedrooms, there's 790 01:02:17.920 --> 01:02:24.960 like where I live outside the everything, any bedrooms. And you're like where's 791 01:02:25.000 --> 01:02:31.480 why I live? Dog coups outside. No, it's a guest sweet thing, 792 01:02:31.960 --> 01:02:36.559 because I don't. It's so I don't have to interact with them and 793 01:02:36.559 --> 01:02:39.960 and I appreciate that. Um, but so underneath, so they built me 794 01:02:40.000 --> 01:02:44.400 a balcony, they built me, Um, like a fire pit area, 795 01:02:44.559 --> 01:02:49.199 and then around the side they have like the pool area. So there's a 796 01:02:49.239 --> 01:02:52.920 lot to do. But with that said, it's also scary because they only 797 01:02:52.960 --> 01:03:00.920 have one ring camera in the front, so I'm in the back with a 798 01:03:00.960 --> 01:03:07.000 lot of woods. No, it's like a super it's like a I don't 799 01:03:07.000 --> 01:03:09.079 want to say it's a rich neighborhood, but it's a pretty high priced neighborhood 800 01:03:09.119 --> 01:03:13.719 and we're in the back of a neighborhood. So it would be worthless. 801 01:03:14.360 --> 01:03:21.960 There's no woods. No, what's behind us is like uh, but like 802 01:03:22.000 --> 01:03:27.119 a half a mile behind us there's a starbucks and lily school, my daughter 803 01:03:27.199 --> 01:03:34.280 school. Yeah, so I figured if anyone's going to try to steal anything, 804 01:03:34.360 --> 01:03:38.920 first of all, everybody here has a camera. UH, so they'd 805 01:03:38.920 --> 01:03:43.599 be screwed. First of all, just everyone has a gun. I have 806 01:03:43.679 --> 01:03:46.000 a gun. Trying to tell him, just tell him you have aids and 807 01:03:46.079 --> 01:03:52.360 just bite his arm. That's what I keep saying. That was my I 808 01:03:52.400 --> 01:03:57.440 thought of that the worst weapon ever and I thought it was during not the 809 01:03:57.480 --> 01:04:01.480 best of my days. But are you around a syringe full of your blood 810 01:04:01.760 --> 01:04:04.920 and just and if somebody ever tries to rob you, just say I'll stick 811 01:04:05.000 --> 01:04:09.960 you, I got AIDS. motherfucker. You know, nobody wouldn't even take 812 01:04:10.000 --> 01:04:13.800 that chance, you know what I'm saying. I was thinking that and I 813 01:04:13.840 --> 01:04:17.480 was thinking that if somebody, Um, damn it, Moss, come on, 814 01:04:17.599 --> 01:04:24.360 let's pile under, if somebody was giving me shit about wearing a mask 815 01:04:24.559 --> 01:04:30.119 or whatever, I'd be like, I have a and I see to prove 816 01:04:30.159 --> 01:04:34.760 a point where you can't get aids from coughing on somebody. But if they 817 01:04:34.800 --> 01:04:39.280 all of a sudden leave me alone, then it's like, do you even 818 01:04:39.280 --> 01:04:43.079 know what you're talking about? Like you can't, you can't get aids from 819 01:04:43.440 --> 01:04:46.440 so leaving me alone, telling me not to wear a mask, me telling 820 01:04:46.519 --> 01:04:53.280 you it's because I have aged just doesn't make any sense, but that you're 821 01:04:53.280 --> 01:04:58.719 an idiot. So I don't know. I've had a couple of dreams, 822 01:04:58.880 --> 01:05:01.719 not daydreams, but like scenarios. I like, what would I do? 823 01:05:02.719 --> 01:05:05.440 That's a good one. Off The anti. I mean, wait till you 824 01:05:05.480 --> 01:05:09.639 get robbed and go for this bloody syringe. All right, don't worry about 825 01:05:09.639 --> 01:05:13.280 little. I have my gun, I have my pistol that I take with 826 01:05:13.320 --> 01:05:16.039 me when I go in and people, people, people survive shot, getting 827 01:05:16.039 --> 01:05:19.000 shot. All right, people are not not afraid to get shot. The 828 01:05:19.079 --> 01:05:20.800 AIDS, though. Let me tell you, they don't love with that. 829 01:05:23.800 --> 01:05:27.280 I mean I would. Somebody had a Rehab said that and I'm like, 830 01:05:27.320 --> 01:05:30.320 you are a genius, bro that's genius. He's like, yeah, I 831 01:05:30.400 --> 01:05:36.119 robbed people with bloody syringes. I go, are you serious? That's why 832 01:05:36.159 --> 01:05:40.920 nothing pases me. All right, so you know, I've seen the good 833 01:05:40.920 --> 01:05:46.039 and not seen the bad. I choose the good. No, bloody, 834 01:05:47.760 --> 01:05:50.480 that's a good one, I think. The other good one, Um, 835 01:05:53.199 --> 01:05:58.440 what was another good one? The one I think about is like kind of, 836 01:05:58.719 --> 01:06:03.440 kind of the same, like when you're trying to negotiate with a Um, 837 01:06:03.719 --> 01:06:11.559 uh, like a hijacker, kindergartener. Kindergarner, a hijacker or hostage 838 01:06:11.880 --> 01:06:15.400 situation or no, car jacker. I was like, okay, you can 839 01:06:15.480 --> 01:06:17.840 take my car. If you decide to take my child, you're gonna actually 840 01:06:17.840 --> 01:06:24.280 be into very serious. So just give me my kid out, but take 841 01:06:24.320 --> 01:06:28.079 the car, take the phone, whatever. Just give me that kid and 842 01:06:28.280 --> 01:06:31.199 I'll give you a ten minute head start, like whatever you want, I 843 01:06:31.239 --> 01:06:38.880 will call tomorrow. Um, you know, that's my worst fear. So 844 01:06:40.639 --> 01:06:45.679 this one might be actually a good episode to put on video, because they 845 01:06:45.760 --> 01:06:51.599 got a fear factor because I like playing people's fears. Let's have a positivity. 846 01:06:53.840 --> 01:06:56.760 Yeah, wait, yeah, that needs to be a thing these days. 847 01:06:58.079 --> 01:07:03.960 I want to see a video phone getting the hatches on the Internet are 848 01:07:04.039 --> 01:07:09.159 like, yeah, if I could set up the Internet, that would be 849 01:07:09.239 --> 01:07:14.800 it. Oh my God, there's so many. Oh, I remember one 850 01:07:14.840 --> 01:07:18.920 of these photo shoots. I went to the very first one, photo slash 851 01:07:19.000 --> 01:07:23.480 video. Um, I walk in, I had no idea what I was 852 01:07:23.519 --> 01:07:29.199 doing, where I was, and the Group of people sitting in the couch, 853 01:07:29.519 --> 01:07:34.360 we're watching decapitation videos, and I thought I was going to die. 854 01:07:35.280 --> 01:07:41.079 I really thought that was this is my death. Um, where do you 855 01:07:41.119 --> 01:07:45.880 get? Where to get someone in the mood? It was so grow text 856 01:07:45.960 --> 01:07:51.880 like, who could even stomach that kind of story? It's really I mean, 857 01:07:53.119 --> 01:07:56.679 I still, you know, obviously I still think about it, but 858 01:07:58.760 --> 01:08:04.760 what a what a warning, red flag? Yeah, well, you'll have 859 01:08:04.800 --> 01:08:08.840 any alert. I am it is what it is. I'm out of my 860 01:08:09.360 --> 01:08:13.639 nothing can happen to me at this point. Knock on wood. Uh, 861 01:08:13.719 --> 01:08:17.600 I've lost my job. I couldn't walk for Aier. Um, I almost 862 01:08:17.640 --> 01:08:21.600 lost my car, like, bring it on, there's nothing I can lose 863 01:08:21.600 --> 01:08:25.239 at this point. But I do feel like harm has been paying me back 864 01:08:25.920 --> 01:08:30.199 with like things like the blogs going well. I have a lot of friends 865 01:08:30.239 --> 01:08:34.079 that have those that are verified, so they're gonna help me a lot with 866 01:08:34.920 --> 01:08:42.640 Um. I'm cashing in all my um favorite that they owe me for writing 867 01:08:42.720 --> 01:08:47.000 articles, so to get some more, you know, followers. But before 868 01:08:47.079 --> 01:08:50.720 that we need to get used to doing this and we need to get used 869 01:08:50.720 --> 01:08:57.560 to doing live, uh, instagram. We need to do live. Thanks, 870 01:08:59.119 --> 01:09:01.680 and then I'll bring and my mom knows a bunch of people. She 871 01:09:01.760 --> 01:09:12.479 knows a former she played in a band with Tim McGraw's Bass Player, and 872 01:09:12.600 --> 01:09:16.920 she knows a songwriter who wrote for like a bunch of artists in the seventies. 873 01:09:17.640 --> 01:09:24.560 My my dad's best friend, which is like my uncle. She's a 874 01:09:24.560 --> 01:09:29.439 tour manager for a C D C and kiss. So like there's a lot 875 01:09:29.520 --> 01:09:38.239 of these cool little random connections that I have that I am not prepared to 876 01:09:38.279 --> 01:09:41.880 put my best foot. Yeah, of course, once you get the steam 877 01:09:41.960 --> 01:09:45.279 roller going, then those, I think those will all kind of a lot 878 01:09:45.319 --> 01:09:48.680 of them will naturally take shape, and then the other ones that you see, 879 01:09:48.880 --> 01:09:54.720 they'll be glad to help you, you know. Yeah, we'll get 880 01:09:54.760 --> 01:10:00.279 the momentum up before ever again. We can make this they situation, the 881 01:10:00.439 --> 01:10:04.880 bell and Ricky show, a long time. I'm ready to go. I'm 882 01:10:05.000 --> 01:10:12.800 ex Austin. You're tired. I was. Honestly, I was super tired 883 01:10:12.840 --> 01:10:16.159 when we started and then I'm like now we're gonna do this, this power 884 01:10:16.239 --> 01:10:19.359 through this. Plus, I was like getting in my own head and I'm 885 01:10:19.359 --> 01:10:23.880 like, it would be nice to talk to yourself. Yeah, thank you. 886 01:10:24.279 --> 01:10:30.720 You're welcome. Are you around tomorrow? Yes, tomorrow, Sunday, 887 01:10:30.840 --> 01:10:33.399 yeah, rather than me going to church, you know, six or seven 888 01:10:33.439 --> 01:10:39.840 times in the morning, please. So, yeah, I'm sleeping in and 889 01:10:39.880 --> 01:10:43.560 doing not ship. So yeah, all right, let's get a couple in 890 01:10:43.600 --> 01:10:47.800 the archive and let's get it in tomorrow. Rip It up to me. 891 01:10:48.479 --> 01:10:57.680 All right, sir, thanks for the conversation. Hey, yeah, you 892 01:10:58.720 --> 01:11:00.880 can you say the one time? Cut Out. I said Hey, thank 893 01:11:01.359 --> 01:11:05.439 you. Okay, and to the people at home, the folks at home, 894 01:11:05.520 --> 01:11:09.920 thank you too. This is the Bella and Ricky show coming at you 895 01:11:10.000 --> 01:11:13.840 all. So you'll do this. So you'll do that. The exit. 896 01:11:15.960 --> 01:11:17.439 The one more time. That was a good one. Go ahead. I 897 01:11:17.439 --> 01:11:21.399 don't know what I said. I'm honestly, I'm brain. I gotta go 898 01:11:21.439 --> 01:11:27.000 to the neurologists like bad things are happening. All right, people, I 899 01:11:27.039 --> 01:11:31.760 gotta go to the neurologious so signing off. Thank you all. Just bad 900 01:11:31.760 --> 01:11:35.439 ships happen and I hope to see you tomorrow. If I don't, give 901 01:11:35.439 --> 01:11:39.479 me a hell of you. I love y'All. I love Y'all too. 902 01:11:40.439 --> 01:11:48.119 Signing Solute please. Oh, okay, thanks for listening. If you like 903 01:11:48.199 --> 01:11:51.720 what you heard, check out cross the streams media dot com to hear more 904 01:11:51.760 --> 01:11:56.840 episodes of this podcasts and the other shows on the cross the streams network. 905 01:11:57.199 --> 01:12:01.279 Don't forget to subscribe, rate and review on apple podcasts or wherever you download 906 01:12:01.319 --> 01:12:05.680 your favorite shows. visit cross the streams media dot com for more information. 907 01:12:06.199 --> 01:12:08.079 See you next time.