Aug. 13, 2025

My Worthless 2cent Table Talk

My Worthless 2cent Table Talk
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My Worthless 2cent Table Talk
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Coming at your life once more again. Also what I

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need for you to do? Sit back, relax, put on

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your head, giar, oh my worthless two since it's about

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to put something.

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In your ah.

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And here we go, Here we go, Here we go.

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Oh yeah, the boy is here. The boy is here.

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The boy is here. Oh man, look at here. Welcome one,

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Welcome all, Welcome, Welcome to the table. Welcome to the table.

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Man.

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Man, I'm excited. I'm excited. And I don't know if

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y'all know. When I come in here and I hit

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this gold button, I just get excited. I'm telling you,

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I really do. I just get excited.

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Man. This is this is thank God.

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It has been a wonderful, wonderful month of July for myself,

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but this is it. It's the last show of the month.

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This is the last show of the month of July.

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And man, I could not I cannot say thank you

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enough to each and every one of y'all who have supported,

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not just in the month of July, but to each

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and every one of y'all who have supported and have

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been there. I thank you for tuning in. I thank

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you for the shares, I thank you for the likes.

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I thank you for the comments. I will say this

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moving in too before I get into anything else, moving

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into the month of August.

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Man, look, if y'all want to or.

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Have an idea, or you have a comment, or you

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have something that you want to say about this wonderful show.

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I got it wonderful.

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But if there's something you want to say about it, man,

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you can drop me a message. You can go to

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my pod page and do a review. Also, I just

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want to say this, I do have a pod page,

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and the pod page is basically the landing page for

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every show that has ever been done, every single show,

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anytime y'all see me live, anytime y'all see me anywhere.

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You can go back and you can watch watch the show.

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You can go back and see some of the wonderful

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guests that have been on the show. You can pull

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up their information and see who they are or how

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if there was somebody that cult your interests, or an

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author or a musician, whoever it may be, or a

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speaker that caught your attention that was on this show,

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you can go back. All their information is there where

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you can get in touch with them. You can get

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in contact with them. You can also go on there,

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and you can leave a comment whatever your comment is.

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That's your comments, ain't my comments, and your comment whatever

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you may want to leave on there. If you have

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an idea, you say, hey, country boy, man, I would

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like to see a show about this, or I would

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like to here's somebody that I know that may want

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to come on and share their journey, or hey, I

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want to come on and share my journey. Leave a comment,

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leave a message, drop me an email, whatever you want

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to do. But I appreciate y'all understand I say that.

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I say that because this I have to explain this,

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and I will. I love to explain this. This is

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not my platform, this is not mine. This is God.

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He gave me this to just watch over. He gave

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me this just to watch over. This don't belong to

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the country boy, and I don't sit up here and

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act like his mind and this is his. I'm just

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I'm just a doorkeep I'm just a button pusher. So

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if there's anyone that feels like I want a place

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to be able to come and talk and share without judgment,

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because anybody right here I want to I've been on

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this journey or I'm going through this right here, right here.

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This is what this is about.

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And I tell people all the time that none of

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this is pre recorded, none of this is scripted.

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None of it.

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For the first time last night I wrote down some notes.

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I wrote down some things because I wanted to deliver something.

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But none of this is. It comes straight, it's authentic.

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What you see is what you get. What you see

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is what you get.

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This is it. This is it.

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Ain't nothing made up about it, it ain't nothing phony about it.

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It's it right here. I'm not here to down anybody.

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I'm not here to discourage anybody. I'm not here to

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do anything other than what this platform is far to encourage,

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to uplift and to support others. So before I get

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into that, I got to get into this before I

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get into that, because I ain't gonna be up on

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here along. I'm telling you, I ain't gonna be up

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on here along. I'm gonna pop this old thing back.

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I'm gonna pop this off right here. I'm gonna rub

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this old shiny head, and I'm gonna say this the Father,

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thank you for this day, Father God. I want to

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thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you Father God.

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Here we are the thirtieth day of the seventh month.

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Some that started out with us are no longer with us,

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Father God. Some of us have lost, some of us

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have gained. Some of us have been through some hurt,

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and some of us have been through some pain. Some

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of us have seen some joy, and some of us

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have seen some rain. But through it all, Father God,

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you have been here with us, through it all, and

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I just want to say thank you. I just want

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to say thank you. Some of us are struggling with addictions.

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Some of us are struggling with mental problems. Some of

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us are struggling with physical problems, Father God, but I

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still just want to say thank you. Some of us

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have tears in our eyes, some of us have smiles

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on our face. Father God, I just want to say

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thank you, Father God. Some of us don't know where

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our next meal is coming from. Some of us don't

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know how we're gonna make it one more day, Father God,

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but I just wanna say thank you. Some of us

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have lost parents, some of us have lost siblings. Some

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of us have lost uncles, cousins and best friends. But

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Father God, I just won't to say thank you, because

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Father God, you are the same good, same God, in

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the good and in the bad. No matter what we

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may face, Father God, your grace, your mercy, Father God,

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it is sufficient. And I just want to say thank you,

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Father God. Thank you for the ones that you've allowed

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in and Father God, thank you for the ones you've

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closed the door on.

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Father God. I just want to say thank you, Father God.

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Thank you for the ones who've cheered, and thank you

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for the ones who booed. Father God. I just want

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to say thank you, Father God. Thank you in the

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have and thank you in the have not, Father God,

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thank you in the rain, and thank you in the sun.

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Father God. I just want to say thank you. I

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thank you, thank you, thank you for your grace, thank

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you for your mercy.

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Thank you, Father God. I pray for a pray for

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each and everyone.

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I pray for strength, I pray for wisdom, and I

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pray for understanding.

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Father God.

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I just want to say thank you, Father God. I

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just want to say as I sit here, as I'm

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saying this prayer, and I think, I think, I think,

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I think about the children that prayed because they wanted

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a king, because everyone around them had a king. Your

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children they prayed because they saw what everybody else had,

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and they wanted what everybody else had, Father God. I pray,

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Father God, I say to you this day, Father God,

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don't give me. Don't give me what I want. Father God,

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protect me from me, see because sometimes I want some

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things that you know are not good for me. But

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you love me so much as you say, go ahead,

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Father God. Thank you, Thank you, thank you, thank you,

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thank you for your protection.

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Thank you for your guidance. Father God.

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I pray for each and everyone that can hear my voice,

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each and every one of them.

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Father God. I pray for them.

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Father God, I pray keep the heads of protection around us.

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Sometimes we get in our own way. Father God, I

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thank you, I thank you. I may not have everything

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I want, but God, you give me every single.

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Thing, and I thank you that.

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I thank you, and I pray for each and every

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person that you continue to provide for them every thing

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that they need.

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Not just this day, but every day. I ask these

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prayers in your son Jesus name. Amen. Amen, Amen, All right,

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look at him who.

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Well again? Old comfortable. I told you I ain't gonna

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be on here long. I just I want to just

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really really really just say thank you. I want to

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say thank you. Thank you having the Father. I thank

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you for allowing these wonderful people, some of the people

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I've never met, I never talked to, don't even know.

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But I thank you, Father God for touching their hearts

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that they open up and come here to listen to support.

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I'm grateful. I'm grateful, and I'm humble. Like I said,

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I'm not gonna be on here long. This is this

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is the last show of the month. And y'all know

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it's Wednesday. And if y'all don't know anything about me,

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know anything about this journey, I know anything about this story.

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Yes.

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Sometimes now I say, man, I'm stretching myself. I'm over

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here and I'm doing over this, and I'm doing that.

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But the one thing, the two things that I said

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and I made a promise to my heavenly Father that

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I would do, is every Monday and every.

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Wednesday, every Monday and every Wednesday, I would be right here.

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Sometimes a little bit late, I ain't gonna get I

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don't get me wrong.

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Sometimes I'll be running to be lately, to be bad.

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But every Monday and every Wednesday, I will be here.

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I'll be coming on here. I've been here for the

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last four years four years by God's grace, through sickness, here,

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through heartache, here, through disappointment.

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I've been here, not because I'm coming.

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To shine and the gloss and flaws. I'm coming for

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God's God. It's been so good. Let me tell y'all,

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this started with me sitting in front of a camera.

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That's just like I am now.

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But this started with me sitting in front of a

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camera going through a separation at the time, going through

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a separation from my family, going through a separation from

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my children. And I came on and I started pouring out.

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And I wasn't pouring out no different than I am now,

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not about anybody else, but he was. Here's if y'all

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don't know this, let me tell you something. When I

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look at these cameras, see y'all don't see y'all. When

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I look at these cameras, I see me. When I

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look at these cameras, if y'all don't know, what I

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see is a reflection of me. So when I'm talking,

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I'm looking at me. I'm looking at me, and I'm

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talking to me, and I'm saying, God, I thank.

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You for where you brought me from.

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God, I thank you from sitting in front of that camera,

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broken but having a conversation with you.

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Yeah, I've been here, and when.

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I've gotten up, I sometimes couldn't do nothing but just

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go lay down because I had just poured it all out.

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I poured out my life, not because it's so glorious.

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I don't come on here and share because I have

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this fantastic, amazing life and everything is perfect. No, I

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pour out because I have a perfect God. I pour

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out because I have a perfect God. I have a

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perfect God.

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I have a God who has.

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Seen me through some of the in my mind because

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because some of y'all have gone through some things. So

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this ain't a comparison to say, well, what you what

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I went through more than you know. I'm just saying

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some of the things in my mind, well, the worst

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things I could face.

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I've come here. I've come here.

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I've come here to share because I want to those

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that don't think. I want to encourage those that don't

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think that they can make it, that you can make it.

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I want to encourage those who people have walked away from,

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who people have talked about. I want those to say

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I can still make it. I've seen an old country

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boy old, comfortable, old gray, old man up there, steady talking.

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And every every time I turn around, I see him

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and he's smiling and he dancing and he's talking like

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he ain't got nothing going on.

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No, it ain't that I ain't got nothing going on.

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It's that I got somebody who's handling what I got

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going on. Oh, it ain't that I don't want to

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break down and cry.

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But he says, why cry? Just give it to me

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and you keep on going, You keep on pushing, you

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keep on going. See. I come here.

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Share my life, just like my life. I do this

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live because my life is live. My mess ups have

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been live, My forgiveness has been live, my unforgiveness was live.

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My hurt has been live. So I don't have time.

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I can't edit nothing, so I'm not gonna edit when

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I come here, I'm not.

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Gonna edit it. This is real.

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Yes, let me tell you this joy that I have.

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The world didn't give it, and the world can't take

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it away.

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This joy I have. I come here live. I come

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here live, not because.

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I'm coming here and I'm trying to work out and

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I'm trying to show something. I don't dance because I

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want somebody to be impressed by my dancer. Let me

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tell y'all something. When you may see me out that dancing,

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and you may see me doing this because let me

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tell you, I did it in the streets.

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For a long time.

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I used to dance, and I was in the club

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every night.

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But now.

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I still dance. I just dance to a different DJ.

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I don't knock anybody for where they are because I

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may not have been. I've said this before and I'm

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gonna say it again. I don't knock anybody for where

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they are or for where they've been. I may not

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have been exactly in the house that you've been in,

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but baby, it is old wretched country boy been down

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that street. I have been a lot of things in

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my life life, and I come here open honest and

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transparent about it. I've hurt people in my life, open

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honest and transparent. It's not that I'm bragging about it,

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but that's the truth about it. Folks hide behind a

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whole bunch of stuff. Let me tell y'all, I did

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this a while back. One of the first things I

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talked about it was take me to the spot. This

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is when I had to do some I had to

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do some soul searching. It was take me to the spot,

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and you you say, coutry boy, what are you talking about?

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Take me to the spot, Take me to the spot

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when you first will hurt.

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Take me to the spot of your first disappointment. Take

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me to the spot of your first loss. See, let

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me tell you what lies in that spot. See for me,

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for me, for me, all these years, and I can

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end the month like this. Let me end the month

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like this. Let me give y'all some background. Let me

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end the month like this. For years, for years, in

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this life of mine, everybody's got a spot first and foremost.

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But for years, in this life of mine, I had

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covered that spot.

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I had covered that.

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Stuff with stuff. This is biblical, so you may get

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it or you may not see. If you remember, there's

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a story, And I didn't come here to preach. I'm

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just telling you about my life. There was a story

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in the Bible about a fellow named Lazards who had

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died and was in a tune. See my life, I

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had done not physically, but I had died because something

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internally was dead. For years, for years, for years, I

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had covered that deadness up with stuff. I don't know

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if anybody else covers stuff up with stuff, See I

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had covered Some people cover that stuff up the spot.

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See you run around and you won't degree after degree

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after degree after degree. You stay in school and you

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go to school, and you just keep going to school,

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and you want disagree and that degree and disagree and

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that degree, because what you're trying to do is you're

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trying to have those degrees to take your mind off

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of it. Some people cover the spot up with addiction,

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whether it's alcohol, whether it's drugs, whether it's pornography, whatever

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it may be.

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They cover that spot up with those.

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Things because they don't want to deal with that spot,

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so they're hoping that that thing will eliminate the pain.

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Don't you know I had that. I covered my up

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with relationships. I covered my spot up. I was in

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relationship after relationship after relationship because I was going through because.

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I didn't want to deal with me.

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I didn't want to deal with me. I didn't want

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to deal with my issues. I didn't want to deal

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with my thing. I talked about it last night. Some people,

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some people so quick to call people broken. I wasn't broken.

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I was just holding baggage. It was for me. This

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is how this started, all of this. God allowed this

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me to come out and share these things about my life,

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about what I have gone through because what I know,

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what I know, what I know, be under the shadow

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of a doubt. Wherever I have come from, somebody is

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going there or somebody is there wherever I've come from,

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whether the hurt, whether the pain, wherever I've come from,

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somebody's there.

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And see, God.

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Says you, you, you, you unperfect you, you feilthy you.

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You dirty you.

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What you can do is you can be able to

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show others what I can do.

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That was my spot.

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My spot was relationships. I covered it up. I covered

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it up. I covered up in and out manages relationships,

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manages relationships, back and forth, back and forth, back and forth.

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Because I never took the time to go back to

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the spot.

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I never took time to go back to the spot.

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See what will happened And what happened to me is

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that came a point in my life where I could

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no longer move forward until I went back, until I

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went back, until I was able to finally, as I'm

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looking here, see I can look at me now. See

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for the longest time, I couldn't look at me in

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a camera. I couldn't look at me in a mirror

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because I didn't even recognize who I was looking at.

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See, I can look at me now.

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I'm not saying I can look at me because I'm

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so handsome and I'm so perfect. I can look at

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me because I know who I am. I know whose

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I am. I can look at me. I can look

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at me and say, you know what. You went back.

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You went back, You went back in, even though the

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going back was painful, even though the going back cause

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did to cry, But you went back. See, let me

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tell you that was Take me to the spot of

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that first hurt. Take me to the spot of that

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first disappointment. Take me to the spot of that first loss.

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Take me to the spot, see my spot on all

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these years. It took me fifty some years to discover

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my spot, my spots. My spots started when I was

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four and a half. That was my spot, that was

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the thing. My pain started at four and a half. See,

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it hurts so bad that I had to cover it up,

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not deal with it, say it again, not deal with it,

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but cover it up. It hurts so bad. All those

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years ago, I just covered it up. See, and let

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me tell you something. When you try to cover some

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up and it don't heal it, never ever, ever, have

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you ever had a cut and you put a band

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aid over it to think it was gonna heal with

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that band aid over. Let me tell you something. All

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you doing is cover it, don't heal. What makes it

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heal is the air got to hit that thing, and

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the air had.

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To hit me.

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I had to be hit to go back in. I

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couldn't fix everything that I had broken. I couldn't repair

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every life that.

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I had destroyed. I couldn't write every wrong.

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But I could dang show and make a try by

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starting to heal and fix me, I started working on me.

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I went back in and discovered why I went through

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so many things. What happened way back when? What happened

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it was this little old, now beheaded boy who lost

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his daddy. But he didn't know how. He didn't know

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how to say how much it hurt. He didn't know

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how to express his feelings.

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He didn't know how.

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So for years, for years, for years, that same thing

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that I didn't know how kept resurfacing in relationships. I

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didn't know how to express my feelings. I didn't know

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how to talk about it. What I didn't know how

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to do then cause damage over and over to others.

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Here I was here, I was, as they say, bleeding

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on people, bleeding on people who didn't even cut me. Here,

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I was bleeding on folks who didn't even cut me.

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But here was the thing.

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I didn't even realize that I was bleeding on them.

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I was actually mad at them because they up there

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trying to make me be accountable for me, and I'm

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going like, I don't know what you're talking about. I

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had to go back. See, I had to go back

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because I finally.

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Realized. See, God had given me.

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Chance after chance after chance, but I didn't realize that's

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what he was doing. It wasn't until it wasn't until

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the birth of my last child. And I say last,

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because I even bled on my oldest child. I didn't

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even know how to connect with my oldest I didn't

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know how to connect with my wife. I didn't know

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how to connect, truly connect with anybody I was with

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because I wasn't even connected with me.

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I had to go back.

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And when I went back, and I removed all of

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the stuff out of the way, and I got to

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moving things, and I got to spending time with myself,

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and I got to reflecting myself, and I got to

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dealing with myself and my stuff. I moved everybody else's

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stuff that I had been dealing with, so now it

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was time for me to deal with my stuff off.

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And when I finally finally dealt with my stuff and

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I got to the issue, or as they say in

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the country, I got to the core of that thing,

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and I realized what it had been was I had

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an inability to express myself because everything in my life

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had been suppressed. Why do I why I got a

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big old mouth right now, Because for years I didn't

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have no mouth because I didn't know how to express myself.

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So now, boy, when y'all hear my big country mouth,

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it's because I'm truly expressing who I am. This is

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years of me wanting to talk but didn't know how

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to talk. Just felt like, you know what, I want

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to say something, just it's not working.

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I want to say how I feel.

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See, I'm that fella when I tell you I've been

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I may not have been in your house, but I've

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been down that street. See, I was that fella that

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went through relationships. I was that fella who went through

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the loss of a child. I was that fella who's

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gone through abortions. I was that fella who did some cheating.

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I was that fella who got cheated on. I was

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that fella that did some live I was that fellaw

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who got lied to.

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That was me?

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How was that fella.

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Who was so much wanted want it to be in

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relationships because guess what, the relationship would have kept me

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from the relationship.

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See.

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I wanted to be in relationships because the relationship kept

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me from the relationship. Because when you in a relationship,

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first and foremost, you share the most intimate things. When

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you're in a relationship, everything is transparent. When you in

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a relationship, you deal with the hard, ugly stuff.

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See.

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I wanted to be in relationships over here, but I

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was never in a relationship with me. See, I couldn't

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even express to me how I felt about being so

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how in the world could I ever express to anybody

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else about anything that's me been down those roads. And

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that's what God allowed this platform for. That's why when

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anybody that comes there is no judgment. I can't judge nobody.

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Why would I I can't down nobody. Why would I.

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I can't look my nose down at anybody. Why would I.

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I've been in the slums, I've been in the mud.

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Some people say, oh, I got it out of the mud.

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God got me out of the mud, got me out.

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When God allowed my daughter's mother and I to be

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her parents, when he chose us to be her parents,

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that was something that shifted inside of me. What shifted

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was this. I knew God, I can't continue being.

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When I've been.

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I can't continue see because even though I'm not what

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I used to be. Then I got to really really

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get this thing together, and I can't do it by myself.

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I can't.

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Oh, Lord, and see, here's the thing that I had

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spent time even before I spent time by myself. I

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spend time searching. But still there were things I needed

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to see. You know how you get so close to

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something and you think that you got it in your

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walk away.

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I got close. I got close. I got close, but.

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Then I walked away because I thought now I got

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it over, I got this, I can handle it.

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I couldn't.

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But I knew at that moment, at that stage of life,

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when God says, guess what.

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I choose you. And here's what.

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Let me tell y'all, this is me my testimony.

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At the moment.

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That my youngest child was born, and at the moment

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that I held her and I sang to her, I

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also prayed. I prayed, and I said, thank you, thank

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you for allowing us this gift. I didn't say she's mine,

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she's ours. I said she's yours, but thank you for

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allowing us to watch over, to guide and protect.

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See, at that moment, I knew that it was much bigger.

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There was so much work I still needed to do.

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There were so many things I still needed to I

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got to learn how to truly.

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Truly communicate.

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I got to learn how to truly truly have a voice.

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I have to learn.

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Because I'm eventually, if I don't, I'm gonna bled on

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this child.

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That didn't even cut me.

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Since that moment, since that time, I have prayed, and

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I consistently prayed. I have asked for forgiveness from those

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that I've wrong, and I've forgiven everyone who's wrong. I've

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gone back into the spot, and God allowed me to

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go back into that spot, and he said, guess what, now,

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you can step out of brand new And when I

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stepped out, he said, shake off them death clothes. See

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what I had to go back in and I had

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to move all the stuff out the way, and I

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had to pull out the deadness, that thing that was dead,

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the love that was dead inside of me, the unconditional

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love that was dead inside of me, the ability to

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connect with someone that was dead inside of me. I

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don't know about anybody else. My truth, My truth is this.

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See that was a point in my life. That was

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a point in my life where I could get close

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00:36:49.440 --> 00:36:51.239
to you, but you could never get close to me.

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I don't know if anybody know that thing.

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I could get close, but you could never ever ever

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get close to me. See, folks pretend in see, but

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here's that thing that was. That was that thing I

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had because that part of me was dead. It died

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when my father died. But God brought it back. He

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brought it back. So when I come and I'm here

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and I say the words to you as I'm saying

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right now, that's I'm getting ready to go. When I

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tell you that I love you, let me tell you

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that ain't coming from the deadness.

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That's coming from the life.

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That ain't coming because it's something cute to say, it's coming,

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because it's real. Because I I love you and I

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want the best for each and everyone. I pray, I

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pray that each and every one of you finds the courage,

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finds the strength and gains the wisdom to go back

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00:38:23.000 --> 00:38:27.800
to your spot, to whatever is dead in your life,

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00:38:31.920 --> 00:38:39.159
and you allow God to resurrect that thing, whatever is

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dead in your life. You allow God to resurrect that thing.

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Whatever that spot is, wherever you left it, wherever you

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left that peace, at, wherever you left that joy, at,

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wherever you left that love, at, wherever you left that forgiveness.

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And I pray.

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This day, July thirtieth, I pray that each and every

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one of you has the strength, has the wisdom, has

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the understanding to ask God, take me back to that spot.

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And resurrect.

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That that is dead inside of me, my joy, my peace,

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my love, and my forgiveness resurrected, resurrected, resurrected.

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I love y'all, I love y'all. I love you. I

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love you.

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I hope y'all have a fantastic weekend. And I your

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favorite country boy, We'll see you next month. If it's

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the Lord's Will good night, good night,