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Callaroga Shark Media. I'm Garrett Fisher and On Christmas Eve
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nineteen seventy five, Dan Fogelberg was visiting his parents in Peoria, Illinois.
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His family wanted Irish coffee, so someone needed to run
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out for whipping cream. Fogelberg, twenty four years old and
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just starting to find success as a singer songwriter, volunteered
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to make the trip. A few blocks away in the
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Abington Hill neighborhood, Jill Anderson was at her parents' house
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with her husband and some family friends. They'd run out
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of eggnog. Her mother asked her to go buy some.
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It was Christmas Eve, almost everything was closed. The only
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store open was a convenience store at the top of
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Abington Hill at thirteen two East Frye Avenue and Prospect Road,
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the Convenient Food Mart. Jill got there first. Dan walked
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in and saw her immediately. She was standing in the
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front and food section. They dated throughout high school, on again,
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off again, from nineteen sixty five to nineteen sixty nine.
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At Woodruff High School, they were both Class of sixty nine.
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After graduation, they'd tried to keep it going while at
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different colleges. Jill went to Western Illinois University to study
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elementary education. Dan went to the University of Illinois and
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Urbana to study theater. They dated intermittently during college, but
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gradually lost touch when Fogelberg moved to Colorado to pursue music.
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Jill had moved to Chicago become a teacher, gotten married.
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They hadn't seen or spoken to each other in years,
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and now here they were in a convenience store on
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Christmas Eve, both sent on errands by their families. What
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happened next became one of the most perfectly crafted story
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songs in popular music history. But first we need to
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understand who Dan Fogelberg was in nineteen seventy five, because
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that context matters. Vogelberg was born in Peoria in nineteen
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fifty one. His father was a high school band director,
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so music was in the house from the beginning. Dan
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played multiple instruments, wrote poetry, had that sensitive artistic kid
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thing going. At the University of Illinois, he discovered folk
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music and started writing songs seriously. In nineteen seventy two,
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he released his first album, Home Free, which didn't do
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much commercially but got him noticed. His second album, Souvenirs,
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produced by Joe Walsh of the Eagles, came out in
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nineteen seventy four and did better. By nineteen seventy five,
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he'd had his first top forty hits. Part of the
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Plan hit number thirty one that year. So in December
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nineteen seventy five, when he came home for Christmas, Fogelberg
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was an emerging artist, successful enough to have a record
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deal and some radio airplay, but not yet a star.
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He was still figuring out who he was as a songwriter,
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what his voice was. And then he walked into that
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convenience store and saw Jill Anderson. According to Jill's later account,
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because she stayed silent about this for decades, she didn't
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recognize him. At first, he changed. She was focused on
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finding eggnog. Then he touched her on the sleeve and
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her eyes flew open wide. She went to hug him
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and spilled her purse. They stood there, laughing until they cried,
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picking up the contents of her purse in a convenience
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store on Christmas Eve while snow fell outside. The awkwardness
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kicked in. At the checkout counter, the cashier rang up
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their purchases, her eggnog, his whipping cream whatever else they'd grabbed,
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and they stood there, conversation lagging, not sure what to
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say to each other. Finally, Dan suggested they go get
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a drink catch up properly, but it was Christmas Eve
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in Peoria. Nothing was open. They walked around looking for
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a bar and found nothing, so they bought a six
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pack of beer at a liquor store. Fogelburn bought Olympia beer,
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according to Jill's memory, and they drank it in her
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car for two hours, just talking. Remember this is nineteen
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seventy five, before cell phones. Their families were waiting for
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them to return with whipping cream and eggnog. This errand
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was taking way longer than it should have, but Dan
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and Jill were lost in conversation, trying to reconnect, trying
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to understand who they'd each become. According to what Jill
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later revealed, the conversation covered everything their marriages. Hers was troubled, loveless,
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secure but empty his music career. He loved performing, but
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hated the constant traveling. They drank toasts, to innocence, to now,
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to old time sake. They tried to reach beyond the
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emptiness of their lives, but neither one quite knew how.
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At the end, when the beer was empty and they'd
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run out of things to say, Jill kissed Dan on
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the cheek. He got out of the car and watched
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her dry, and as he walked back to his parents' house,
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the snow turned into rain. That detail is important. Fogelberg
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later confirmed that the snow really did turn into rain.
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It wasn't poetic license, it actually happened. For a moment,
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walking home in the rain, Fogelberg felt like he was
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back in school, feeling that old, familiar pain of their breakup.
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Then he went home, presumably with whipping cream for the
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Irish coffee, and Christmas continued. Five years past. Fogelberg's career
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took off longer, hit number two in nineteen eighty, Hart
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Hotels went to number twenty one. He was becoming a
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major adult contemporary artist, the kind of singer songwriter who
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filled arenas and sold millions of records, And one day
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in nineteen eighty he sat down and started writing about
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that night in the convenience store. Later, he'd say he
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initially thought the song was a joke, essentially laughing at
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himself as he looked back on that fateful encounter. But
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as he wrote, something shifted. He realized this wasn't a throwaway,
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this was important. Let's talk about the craft of this song,
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because same Old lang Sign is masterfully constructed. First, the
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title same Old lang Sign is a play on ald
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lang Sign, the traditional Scottish song sung on New Year's Eve.
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Ald lang sign means old long since, or more loosely,
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for old time's sake. It's about remembering the past, about
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old friends, about nostalgia. Bogelberg's title keeps the lang sign
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part but adds same old, suggesting that this encounter, this
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conversation is just another version of what they'd always done,
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same old patterns, same old feelings, same old inability to
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quite connect. Second, the structure the song is pure narrative,
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told in past tense first person, like a short story, setup, encounter, conversation, resolution,
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But Fogelberg uses incredible restraint. He doesn't over explain, he
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doesn't tell you how to feel. He just shows you
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what happened, detail by detail, and lets the emotion emerge
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from the specifics. Look at the opening, met my old
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lover in the grocery store. The snow was falling Christmas Eve,
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I stole behind her in the frozen foods, and I
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touched her on the sleeve. In four lines, you know
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exactly where you are and what's happening. The detail of
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frozen foods is perfect, specific visual ordinary. This isn't romantic.
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It's a grocery store. Life is mundane, even when emotionally significant. Third,
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the musical composition. This is where Fogelberg shows serious sophistication.
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The main vocal melody, the met my old lover in
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the grocery store phrase is taken directly from Chaikov's He's
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eighteen twelve overture, specifically the famous French horn part. It's
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not subtle if you know what you're listening for, but
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most people don't recognize it. Fogelberg essentially borrowed from classical music,
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the same way Paul Simon did with American Tune from
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Bach or Billy Joel did with this Night Action from Beethoven.
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Why Tchaikovsky's eighteen twelve overture. That piece is about war,
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about Napoleon's invasion of Russia, about conflict and resolution. There's
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something quietly brilliant about using a melody associated with war
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and struggle for a song about two people who can't
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quite bridge the gap between them. The personal becomes epic,
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the intimate borrows grandeur, and then there's the ending, Michael
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Brecker's soprano saxophone solo, playing an improvised jazzy version of
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auld lang Sign. Brecker was a giant of smooth jazz.
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He'd played with Steely Dan, Paul Simon, Joni Mitchell, everyone.
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Fogelberg got him for this session, and Brecker delivered something
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both mournful and beautiful. That sax solo ties everything together.
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The title references ald lang Sign. The lyrics are about
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remembering old times, and the song literally ends with the
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melody of old lang Sign being played. It's elegant, circular
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perfect fourth, and this is crucial. Fogelberg writes specific details
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that make the story feel real because it was real,
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but even if it hadn't been, these details would make
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it feel authentic. She went to hug me, and she
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spilled her purse and we laughed until we cried. That's
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not a cliche moment. That's what actually happens when you
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unexpectedly run into someone in a store. We stood there,
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lost in our embarrassment as the conversation lagged Anyone who's
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ever run into an ax knows this exact feeling. She
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said she'd married her an architect who kept her warm
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and safe and dry. She would have liked to say
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she loved the man, but she didn't like to lie.
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This is devastating without being dramatic. It's just honest. The
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song is full of these moments. They're not flashy, they're
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just true. Bogelberg released Same Old Lang Sign as a
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single in November nineteen eighty. It entered the Billboard Hot
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one hundred on December twenty seventh, right between Christmas and
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New Year's Eve, which couldn't have been better timing, and
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peaked at number nine in February nineteen eighty one. Here's
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where it gets interesting from a business perspective. The song
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was a hit, climbing the charts, getting constant radio play.
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People wanted to buy the album, but there was no album.
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Fogelberg's record company was going crazy. What had happened was this.
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Bogelberg had originally planned to put Same Old Lang Sign
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on a standard album, but on New Year's Eve, while
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the single was climbing charts, he sat down to sequence
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the album and had an epiphany. This shouldn't be a
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regular album. It should be a double album, a song cycle,
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a concept album, tracing the arc of life from nostalgia
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through the present. So he spent another six months writing
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new songs to fill out the vision. When the album,
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The Innocent Age finally came out in August nineteen eighty one,
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same old Lang Sign was the last track on the
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first disc. The weight had driven the record company nuts,
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but it was worth it. The album went double platinum,
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over two million copies sold. Three more singles from it
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hit the top twenty. Meanwhile, five years after that convenience
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store encounter, in early nineteen eighty, Jill Anderson Groulitch was
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driving to work in Chicago. She was a flight attendant
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for twa heading to O'Hare before dawn. It was still
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dark out. The radio was on. A song came on.
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It sounded like Dan. She didn't remember him having a
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new song, so she was excited to hear his voice.
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Then she started listening to the lyrics. Oh my gosh,
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she thought, Wait, the grocery store, Christmas Eve, the snow,
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the beer in the car, the conversation about her marriage,
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all of it she knew immediately this song was about her,
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about them, about that night in the convenience store, and
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she said nothing. She told a few close friends who
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already knew the story, but publicly she stayed silent. Fogelberg
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never revealed her identity. Only a handful of people knew
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who the old lover in the song was. Why did
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she stay quiet? Respect for Fogelberg's privacy, respect for her
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own privacy. She was remarried by then, had her own life,
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and maybe because the song belonged to everyone who'd ever
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run into an old love and felt that same mix
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of nostalgia and sadness. Years later, backstage at a Fogelberg concert,
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they had a conversation about the song. He apologized for
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two inaccuracies. First, in the song, he says her eyes
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were still as blue Jill's eyes are green. When they
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dated in high school, Fogelberg had called her sweet Jillian
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green Eyes, a play on her full first name and
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a reference to a Crosby, Stills and Nash song, But
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Blue rhymed better with what he needed for the next line,
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so he changed it poetic license. Second, in the song,
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she's married to an architect. In reality, her husband was
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a physical education teacher. Fogelberg probably didn't even know what
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her husband did for a living. Architect sounded more specific,
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more evocative. It suggested someone practical, someone who builds stable structures,
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which fit the theme of her marrying for security rather
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than passion. Jill didn't mind either change. She understood songwriting
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requires choice. The emotional truth was accurate, even if some
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details were adjusted. Fogelberg died of prostate cancer on December sixteenth,
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two thousand and seven. He was fifty six years old.
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In those final years, he'd been fighting the disease while
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still performing, still creating. A Few days after his death,
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Jill Anderson Grillish decided it was time to come forward.
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Fogelberg had protected her identity for twenty seven years. Now
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that he was gone, she felt she owed it to
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him and his fans to tell her side of the story.
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She contacted the Peoria Journal Star and gave an interview
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published on December twenty second, two thousand and seven. She
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confirmed the basic facts of the song, the convenience store,
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the beer in the car. The two hour conversation, she
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explained the two inaccuracies about her eye color and husband's profession,
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she shared details that only she would know. The response
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was overwhelming. Fans of the song had always suspected it
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was autobiographical. It felt too specific, too detailed to be fiction.
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But having confirmation having the actual person step forward who
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gave the song new depth. In two thousand and eight,
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the city of Peoria gave the street where that convenience
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store sits an honorary designation, Fogelberg Parkway. It runs right
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by the parking lot where they drank beer in her
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car on Christmas Eve nineteen seventy five. The convenience store
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still exists. It's now called Shortstop Food Mart. If you
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wanted to, you could go there today, stand in the
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frozen food section and imagine Dan Fogelberg touching Jill Anderson
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on the sleeve. Same old Lang sign became a staple
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of holiday radio, both Christmas and New Year's. The opening
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lyrics mentioned snowfalling on Christmas Eve and the ending references
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ald Lang Sign, so it fits both holidays. Some radio
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stations initially banned it in the early nineteen eighties because
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of the alcohol reference drinking beer in a car, but
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the song's popularity was too great it became unavoidable during December.
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The song's appeal is its universality. Almost everyone has experienced